Battle Scars ➳ Ashton Irwin || #Wattys 2016

Chapter Eleven

~ previous ~

I loved cuddling with Ashton, it was like I didn't have to worry about anything else but earning that adorable smile from him.

Just looking at his messy, fluffy, light brown hair made me smile

I think I'm falling for Ashton Fletcher Irwin.

And I didn't mind one bit.

~ present ~

After the first movie only Ashton and I were awake watching the third one. Everyone else had went to their rooms to sleep for the night. It was only about three am and we were getting sleepy but I pushed through the movie, while Ashton feel asleep, his arms tangled around me in my half asleep state.

"Ash?" I whisper shaking his shoulders. He mumbled and moved his position. "You can stay with me tonight if you want, I feel bad for stealing your bed." I chuckles.

"Okie doke." He mumbled. I stand up and wrap his arm around my neck and walk him to his bed. His feet trip over each other, making me laugh. I lay him down on the left side of the queen size bed while I'm on the right, closer to the wall, covered in posters. Now that I think about it I haven't been into any of the other boys' rooms. But I shouldn't snoop around, a part of me really wanted to.

I quickly shut off the light to the room and lay down. Ashton yawned and tucked me into his chest as soon as I had gotten comfortable.

"Ash, go to sleep." I groan. I try to pull out of his reach but I couldn't.

"Not till you cuddle me." He pouts.

"We did, for 3 movies straight." I sigh.

"Come on, pretty please?" He begs pulling me even closer to him. I give up and sigh and lay in his arms. It's not that I didn't want to cuddle with him, why wouldn't I? But I just didn't want to lead him on and think that I'm ready for a relationship with him. Yes I'm starting to fall for him, but I can't possibly be ready for a committed relationship, even If I really wanted to. I just need to sort out more of my problems, and figure out what my next move is. I don't want to over stay my welcome here with the boys, I'm sure they're going to want Ashton back since I've been hogging him most of the time. I feel bad. I mean, they had him first and I can't take away that relationship.

"Hey, Ashton?" I whisper, trying to get into a comfortable position. He moves with me but never answers. He must have fallen asleep. I wanted to talk about finding my own place, I'm sure he wouldn't want me to but I can't stay here forever, I'm sure the boys would get tired of me sooner or later.

I use Ashton's arms as a pillow and slowly drift into my happy slumber.

Ashton

After I know Shay has fallen asleep I remove her from our intwined legs and arms and sit up and dangle my legs off the bed. I don't know how to tell her that I'm starting to fall for her. I have to but I can't tell her in the right way. It's too soon. She needs time. And I have to respect that. I mean I do, but if feel like I've know her for years. And she'll never understand how much I care for her. She has definitely gotten better when I meet her a couple weeks ago. I know what you're probably saying, I just met her and I can't possibly be falling for her this soon. But we text and talk all the time. Even just stupid little things during work. I found out that she just has trust issues with herself and letting people in her life. I totally understand. She has been to torn down and when people build her up they tear her down again. I don't get why people have to be so cruel to such an angel like her. It's just not right. She's so sweet and yet she's so broken.