kiss me, not her

14.

It was Saturday and I had a meeting with Bang Sihyuk and BTS.

To be honest I was a bit scared.

They were expecting my results of the last week and I was afraid that I didn't have the good news they probably wanted to hear.

When I entered the meeting room everyone looked at me as I took place on a chair sitting infront of all of them.

"Hello, Bang-nim", I said as I took out my notebook and I felt how the members stared at it as if it was a death note.

"Good morning, Ms. Summer. I hope you had a great week. Please share your results of the first week.", he said with a polite smile.

I glanced over at the other BTS members to see their nervous expressions. I smiled warmly.

"I'll start with mental health then."

He nodded.

"To explain everything simply, Min Yoongi, Kim Seokjin and Jung Hoseok are healthy."

They sighed in relief.

"They indeed have shown signs of stress, but they seemed to be healthy and had no signs of depression or other mental issues. Please note that to make a diagnosis with more detail, I'll have to know you better, but for the moment you seem fine.", I said.

"Kim Namjoon, Kim Taehyung, Park Jimin and Jeon Jungkook."

I could feel the tension get worse as I kept going on.

"Kim Namjoon.", I said as we made eye contact.

"You seem to be mostly fine, but I wonder why you haven't looked for therapy before. You indeed seem to need a but of therapy to work on your self-esteem and confidence, but you're mostly healthy, congrats.", I smiled at him and he smiled relieved in return.

"On the other side...Kim Taehyung and Jeon Jungkook. You too need more therapy. You might suffer from stress conditioned depression, but again, I want to note that this are my results after one week. You could actually be healthier than I have concluded in this week, so please don't worry. We'll talk later about your symptoms."

They looked tense and I felt sorry to have to announce their health problems infront of all this people.

"Park Jimin. For me you seemed fine, but I would like to take more time to analyze your mental health. Even though you seem to be fine, I have the light suspect that you might have some issues with self-image or too high expectations on yourself which could lead to future burn outs."

After I ended they looked quite tired.
But I had to go on.

"All of you seem to be fine physically except of some muscle pain from dancing, but I think with more rest you'll be fine. The only problems here are Jeon Jungkook's and Kim Taehyung's physical pain. They don't have any physical problem, their pain is caused by stress and/or depression. Because of this I would like to ask you to give all of them more rest. They can work later, but if their bodies give up, they won't be able to work anymore later on. Jungkook-ssi, Jimin-ssi and Taehyung-ssi, I would like you to come more often to therapy. For me you'd need physical therapy as well as mental therapy."

They seemed more calm and I sighed.

"I see. We'll work on their schedule to give them more rest, thank you, Miss Summer.", he said with a light smile
I could hear a bit of worry in his voice and that made me feel kind of relieved. After all, it meant he did care for their health and wasn't just acting for the media like SM seemed to.

"You can call me Eliah, sir. I'll see you guys later to make some medical examinations. Thank you for your time.", I said and bowed before leaving the room.

After closing the door behind me, I felt my heartbeat raising. Anxiety was kind of still am issue for me.

I took my headphones and my smartphone out of my pocket and listened to music as I walked to my office.

🎵
Let out your breath even more
Until you feel
like there's nothing left inside
🎵

Those were the last words I heard before I slept in, laying on the patient's bed.