Chapter 2. Dying inside

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_A few months later_

Yeah I'm dying inside, so what? It doesn't matter anyway. I still have Ze to help me out but it's not the same because he's not around in the office anymore. He moved and it hurts a lot but oh well. I walk off to my office and I start editing something I made.

"Three Um, someone is here for you." I sigh and get up. Pushing Jordan out of the way. I really didn't want to have anything to do with him. I walk out to see Smarty sitting there.

"Hey Smarty." I smile.

"Hey Three whats up?" He asks, getting up to hug me.

"Nothing much, just sulking, you? "I ask.

"You know just waiting for the girl of my dreams to like me." He says. A hint of sadness pings in his voice.

"I'm sure she will at some point you just have to give it time." I say giving him my genuine smile that everyone loves.

"Yeah... I doubt that." He mutters and hugs me again. We walk to me office and I smile.

"So what do you wanna do?" I ask. He just shrugs.

"I don't know." He whines.

"I could get James and Aleks to play a bored game or something. I have cards against humanity." I smirk. He looks up.

"Derps against humanity edition?" He asks. I smile and nod. I grab the game and we walk to James' office.

"James I'm playing cards against humanity with Smarty wanna join?" I say opening his door.

"Yeah I'll be in the CT room in a few minutes." He smiles.

"Okay We're going to see if Aleks wants to play too." I smile.

"Alright what ever." He mutters and I smirk.

Smarty's helping but every one else just makes me think of Chilled and it builds up my walls and shattering what's already shattered. I don't want to pick the pieces up. Yet, Smarty wants to pick my pieces up and I love him for that.

We walk to alek's room and I open the door a bit to find him asleep. I walk in and shake him a little bit.

"Aleksandr Wake up we're playing cards against humanity." I know it's one of his favorite card game so I wanted him to play. Sad he knows me so well.

"Huh, um alright." He says.

I grab a camera and we go to the CT room.  We play for a while then Smarty has to go to his Hotel to record. I sigh and leave.

He got me no where but I guess it doesn't help that I was with James and Aleks while he was around. Tomorrow him and I are going to take a day off of gaming commentary and just vlog.

"I'm sorry that we aren't helping to knock down your walls. I'm sorry we aren't helping to pick the pieces up." James says quietly and he peeks his head in.

"Look. I'm not picking up the pieces and just being around you guys builds up the walls and shatters what's already been shattered. I really don't think I take much more of it. I can tell Smarty's the only one that can take down the walls and Put all the pieces back together." I sigh.

He nods and leaves. I fall asleep at my desk. I'm getting even more depressed. I'm probably going to think about suicide soon and everything. Smarty and Max and Chilled will be pissed.

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