I Need You: Troyler

I Promise

Troye's POV~

Tyler's cheeks always have a rosy glow to them, and his skin is so soft, like cashmere. I reached my hand up to brush my thumb over his cheekbone. For the past couple minutes, I have been trying to coax out whatever secret he had been hiding from me. Whenever Tyler has something he wants to tell me, he wont look me in the eyes and he chews on his bottom lip anxiously. Currently, he's doing both. My face was so close to his that I could feel his warm breath on my nose and smell the faint scent of his fading cologne. Our legs intertwined in a tangled clutter underneath the thick hotel comforter. His hand rested hesitantly on my hip that sent shivers up my body. I had been anticipating this moment since the second I realized he was keeping fragile information from me. Last night, I had woken up to rummaging near the end of the bed and seconds later, a door closing with careful quietness. For about 5 and a half hours, I sat against the headboard writing scribbles of words that Tyler leaving had inspired in me. I waited for his return and time flew by as the jumbled sentence fragments began to form the lyrics that now played repeatedly in my mind. I decided to pretend I had been asleep for his sake of him not having to explain his previous whereabouts.

Now, I couldn't hold my tongue any longer and bluntly approached Tyler with the topic he was so obviously avoiding. "We can talk about it if you want. I'm here for anything you need." My voice cracked as I held my determinedly honest tone. I waited for his reply for what seemed like years of watching his eyes move underneath his eyelids searching for an answer. His hand that had rested on my hip now slid off to fumble with the corner of the sheets. Finding Tyler speechless was a rare occurrence and when he finally brought his aegean colored eyes up to meet mine, they glossed over and the specks of black in his eyes enlarged to become nearly fully dilated. His voice came out hoarse and flat "It wasn't all strangers that did... things to me. Sawyer was there too." Had I heard him correctly? No I definitely misheard him. Its early and I could easily have drifted off to sleep being so comfortable in Tyler's arms. He didn't say that Sawyer had been present when Tyler was drugged. While the vocally silentargumentcontinued it's course in my mind, Tyler's eyes continued to water. "He raped me Troye. While other people stood there and watched, no one helped me. I was barley coherent but I remember how it felt to-" He looked down again as disgust enveloped his facial expressions and he was left unable to finish his explanation. He then let out a terrifyingly scared murmur "Troye I don't know what to do." By now, he had lost whatever control he previously had on his emotions and was now spewing out words mixed with sobs that I couldn't understand. Troye you have to be strong for him, he needs you to be strong. He was your rock when you got the call about your mom, now you need to do the same for him. My internal pep talk quickly brought me back to where I so desperately needed to be. I clung my arms around Tyler's back and brought the defeated man crying next to me closer into my arms. He curled up smaller into a ball, trying to escape the emotions that screamed so loud in his mind that I could hear them. I stroked his hair calmingly in a redundant pattern and laid kisses in his hair. "Tyler, baby come here" I inched my way up the headboard in a half laying down, half sitting up posture, pulling the motionless body that is Tyler's along with me. His head slumped into my shoulder and I scooped his face into my hands, lifting it enough to make damn sure he could see the emotions in my eyes. "Tyler Oakley, you are smart" I kissed his forehead lightly and when I pulled away I saw his eyes had fallen shut. "You are sweet" I kissed his cheek, tasting salty wet tears. "You are beautiful" my lips found the tip of his nose as he sniffled from crying. "You are strong" I trailed a line of kissed from his shoulder down his upper arms. "You are caring and your heart is bigger then anyone else's" I curved my back and leaned my body over to place a kiss above where his heart is. His chest is bare and smooth, and when my lips touch, I can feel his rapid heartbeat threatening to fly out of his chest at any moment. When I came back up to his level, I had one more place that deserved my attention. I desperately kissed his lips and cringed through the kiss, straining to hold back tears as thoughts of what Sawyer had potentially done to my Tyler invaded my thoughts. I released his lower lip from in between mine enough to where they still touched, "and you are the love of my life" as I spoke, every letter caused our lips to brush together. The intensity of intimacy held in this moment is more then I have ever felt with anyone before. He passionately reconnected our kiss and strained for the closeness we felt in our hearts. He swung his left leg over my body and straddled my thighs. My hands clung to every curve alone the sides of his body making sure to include every part of him as my hands explored his body. I momentarily broke away from the kiss to look into his eyes

"I swear to god he will not get away with making you feel like this. I promise."

Okay so another emotional chapter, I keep thinking that I want the chapters to be longer instead of splitting it up between two or three short chapters, but that would mean they would take longer to publish. So I want to know what all you munchkins think. Would you rather have shorter chapters more often, or longer ones less often. BIG ANNOUNCEMENT! I just started a new Troyler AU and I am extremely excited for it. Its going to have lots of surprises and twists. Please please please go check it out, its called Invisible. Thank you so much for reading, we hit 2K reads and I'm ecstatic x

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