My Broken 💓 Heart 💓 Story

after confessing

After the whole confession thing we were blushing our heads off and our friends found that weird because we weren't ones to show our feelings.

Questions kept Rollin in because of our akwardness.

I got home and ran to the shower, I stayed in there for 2 hours freaking out, you see my best girl friend just broke up with him a couple of day before this and I didn't want her to hate me.

You see all my life I haven't had a single girlfriend, I've only been really close friends with boys, I didn't want this stupid stuff to come between us.

When I got to school the next day, I couldn't look the guy in the eye so I called.my bestie over to talk.

Btw... I get to school very early and so do my best friends, I was freaking out, I was pre-panic attack bad, she asked me what was wrong, I came clean and said to her this.

"I don't want you to hate me, but I want to tell the truth... I've liked ____ for a little now... and yesterday something happened. He said he liked me and I said it back! I forgot about the drama surrounding you and him! I'm really sorry! I told (my other girl bestie) _____ last Thursday and I don't know what to do!"

She looked at me like I was stupid, she told me she doesn't hate me for something that I can't control, that made our bond so much stronger over that.

Me and him talked it over and we had a little joke about it afterwards, my friends figured out about it after the first hour of school since he told one of my mates and it just circled around...the entire school.

People were coming up to me asking if it was true, all I said was 'I don't know what your talking about, but if I is true I would worry about it'.

After that long day I was walking home with him, and.

HE GRABBED MY HAND! Now I found that was a big deal, that to me was crazy, I mean come on dude we told each other we liked each other yesterday, I got mad and flustered because...

His little sister was behind us, we were close friends, she felt shadowed by her older sibling, I didn't want her to think that I chose him instead of her because being a younger sister myself I knew how that felt.

After her grabbed my hand I pulled it away grabbed my phone out of my pocket and said 'oh I forgot my mum is picking me up today' it was extremely awkward moment. I couldn't believe he did that. I didn't like the fact that after a day of each other knowing likes each other he tried that but I got to admit it was a very risky move... But know thinking about it I hugged and 'held hands' with my boy best friend... And at the end of the day my best friend kissed my cheek... I don't even know anymore...

I would let someone kiss my cheek but I didn't let my crush hold me hand ... I told him I wasn't a touchy feely type person and I was only comfy with four certain people hugging me...

All of which are my best friends, but I felt out of place when someone else tried to do that stuff and I hade no idea how to work it out.

He got jealous of my best friends, he accessed me of dating/liking one of them because of how close we are, you see me and my main boy/friend only talked when we both really needed it he would hug me and say goodbye after school and we would walk around the school field ranting to each other about our life's, I was comftble with him knowing my deepest secrets and I was there for him after his dad died, I gave him the biggest hug ever and told him we should go for a walk, he wanted to ditch school but I told him that we couldn't because his mother had already felt enough grief for now, my crush thought because I was helping ____ instead of spending time with him I liked him.

I found that maddening, I was close to all of my best friends, most boys, and I was always going to be there for them no matter what troubles we had during the time.

He got jealous of his best friend, he was mad because I was talking to the friend... I ended 2 relationships over liking the guy.

I still to this day don't understand where this jeloualsy came from but I hoped it would end sooner than later.... It never did...