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seven: just a mistake

JUSTIN

"You did what?!" Reena almost yelled in surprise when I told her that I kissed Luna last week since I finally found the guts to tell her that.

More like I needed some external input on this because it's killing me. Ever since the kiss, things I've gotten very awkward between Luna and I.

Correction, I am the awkward one. Everytime she tries to talk to me and tries to pretend like nothing happened, I get all silent and monotonous until I walk away before I make her feel any more hurt or rejected.

I'm probably making her feel like I feel horrible about it when the truth is I don't. I find it hard to admit but I haven't stopped thinking about the kiss, every night for the past eight days, I keep recalling the feeling of her soft lips against mine. The feeling of having her body so close to me. It is very unlike me to feel all this. Which obviously is the reason I'm being an asshole to her.

"I don't know how or why I did that, I just couldn't hold myself anymore and suddenly Tyrell showed up out of nowhere and-

"Tyrell? You kissed her because of Tyrell?" She said with a hint of smile.

"What? Are you kidding me Reena, why would our kiss have anything to do with Tyrell?!" I said

"You just mentioned him yourself Justin, you got insecure that your ages old nemesis and the only guy who can compete with your charming ways here is back and you kissed her to try to tell her that Tyrell is a no-no for her" She said and I shook my head.

"You sound like a lunatic" I said.

"It's understandable, considering your history with Tyrell, it's okay if you fel-

"It was not because of Tyrell Reena, there have been a lot of instances before where I almost kissed her!" I blurted out of frustration.

But that is anyways a good reason to cover up the fact that Tyrell was most probably the reason why I went from almost kissing her to actually kissing her.

"A lot of instances?! Wow I'm loving every word you say, I ship y'all so hard"

"I-I mean once before, when I took her for that long drive"

"I don't know Reena, she's a really good person, she's calm and almost never annoys me which is different than all the other females I've ever been with. She's just so patient and I don't know how a person in her position can be so good to me, someone who's basically ruined her fucking life!" I said.

"And the only reason I feel bad for kissing her is that she might start thinking of us as something more and o don't not want to hurt her that way" I added.

"What's wrong in her thinking more of your" she asked softly and my eyes snapped towards her.

"Everything about it is wrong Reena. I kill people and sleep like a baby and she's been traumatized for life by seeing me do that. He world is so much different than mine, we can never collide and even if we do, it will end up hurting her the most considering how I've mastered swallowing my feelings over the years" I said.

"You should just talk to her about it then Justin, just clear up everything before she thinks something else" She said and I nodded.