Mine Then, Mine Now

5

I told Jay what was on my mind.

I felt like I didn't even know him, who was this sweet guy?

I don't know maybe because you don't know him!? Dipshit.

He listened doing the perfect face expressions at the perfect times.

When I was done he had his chin in his hand, his eyes gleamed a light amber.

He smiled, "Damn, how could a guy do you like that? Lucky for you, Men are stupid, and as long as you look like a new born baby, they are willing to mate with you."

"Is that from contouring 101?" I asked, remembering the skit of the hilarious girl with such big opinions.

I wish I was like that, sure I had opinions, but were they any good? No.

He slightly chuckled, "yes as a matter of fact, I ran across it one time, and the girl reminds me of you for some reason."

"Weird, considering I'm not loud, much less like sharing my opinions.."I said looking down at the work we had already completed.

Well he had completed, as I talked to him, he some how managed to read the articles and listen to me at the same time.

He not only had done that, but he also wrote his answers on my paper.

Jay was smart, freaky smart, he just didn't show it off.

He shrugged, "everybody sees the world differently, I for one don't believe in world peace."

I gave him a confused look, talk about heartless.

"No, I mean, world peace never occured, never in a million years has their ever been peace between everyone or everything, so I don't understand why anybody would expect it" he brushed his black curly bangs out of his eyes, since he looked down at me, even while sitting.

I nodded, trying to comprehend his dark mind, "why are you so rude sometimes?" I asked bluntly.

He seemed held back by my sudden question, but his face softened and a small smile formed on his lips.

His red, soft looking, lips.

"I'm sorry If I was a dick, I'm not the best when it comes to new people, I've never really learned how to treat a girl, I'm so used to guys laughing at my insults, I guess that's why they're called insults?" He slightly raised his dark eyebrows.

"Because they're offensive..."I nodded.

He looked me in the eyes, "I'm sorry."

I came to my senses, I hadn't realized I was in a daze.

"Uh, its, fine..." I said, the silence was awkward.

I wrote a few notes that Jay had missed when doing my work.

I was focused, also processing the fact that I had just told him one of my biggest heartbreaks, something I had never even told Nick or Audrey.

I don't know what it was about him that made me want to trust him.

As I thought this and many other things, I catch him looking at me through the corner of my eye.

I face him, his hazel eyes quickly bounced off of me and onto some makeup Godzilla purpousley bending over.

"Why were you looking at me?" I asked.

"Do I need an excuse to look at people?" He asked, hoping to get the subject changed.

"Sometimes" I shrugged.

"I'm sorry, didn't mean to stare, your just so nice to look at" he said in a sort of hypnotised trance.