Then I realise something. They weren't shouting at me and James. Only James. Why were they shouting at James? What had he done wrong?
Then I hear the leader, he was tall, hooded like all the others but with a power that shut all of them up with him just looking at them. 'We waited James. It's been to long since our last reunion. How much were you owed us? Let's think eight grand!'
I was confused. What were they talking about? I looked at James wanting to see him looking as i was confused. But all I saw was embarrassment and sorrow. He knew what they were talking about.
'I'm sorry Alice. I am in a dept a big one. It was the drugs.'
'So you haven't been honest with us James. You haven't been honest with your precious lice is see as well. Well something's got to pay this.' The man said looking t him freakishly. James went berserk he started out shouting abuse at the men, threatening them on if they touch me he will kill them. Everything was going so fast I just stood there s they held me back and killed the man I loved. They laughed the whole time, blood was everywhere. Screaming and begs is all I could hear. I tried to help him I really did but there strength was far greater than mine I just had to shut my eyes and pray for James that he would get through this. But sometimes praying isn't enough. He had no hope. He got 41 stab wounds and a full on beating to every part of his body. They threw me into wall and knocked me out after I endured the love of my life get killed.
I was asked many questions by the police, I tried to answer fully, but I could barely speak. When I could I did help far more. And six out of the ten men were charged with murder.
I didn't let my parents know about my engagement but they weren't so emotional about his death. They hated him and he was out of the way. But what made me decide my fate was they arranged a marriage with and this man who I never could love even if I tried.
It wasn't that he wasn't attractive with his masculine figure, pale skin, blue eyes and blonde hair and he was a nice man. He just wasn't my James and no one could replace him ever.
Then I realised. No one could ever be my James. I would never be together. I could never be happy ever again. I had lost my meanings to live.
So on that night the 28th august I made my choice. Now i do feel happy. I'm completed again, I'm with him again. It was very easy and not very painful. My arrangement with that really did help and make it quicker. He was very good. That concoction was most deadly. It was like I couldn't breathe. Because i couldn't. I was suffocating but only for a few seconds. Ten I just fell asleep. And I will not ever wake up in this dream, as long as I'm with him like I m now my spirit is free.
