I wake up to my alarm blaring through my ears. I turn it off and let out a huge sigh. I go back to school today. I force myself to get up and get a shower. As I walk across my hardwood floor, I wince at how cold it is on the bottom of my feet. I step into the bathroom, strip, and put on some music to wake me up. As I stand in the shower, I start to remember what happened last night. I try to decide whether it actually happened or if it was just a really good dream. I convince myself that it actually happened because I can barely walk right.
When I get out of the shower, I click my home button and look at my notifications. I have some from Instagram and Twitter, and a text from both Ethan and Grayson. I decide not to pay attention to them because the guilt will just rush back to me. My outfit for today is high waisted jeans with a grey NASA crop top, black vans and with my hair straightened. I never do my make up because it consumes so much time. After I'm done getting ready, I go downstairs, grab my keys and head out to my car. As I'm walking to the car, I notice that Ethan and Grayson are over with Austin and Catherine's house. They catch a glimpse of me walking to my car. Grayson looks concerned but Ethan is trying to hold back a smirk. He winks at me before I turn away and get in my car.
When I arrive at the school, I lock my car and try to walk inside. I walk inside and go to my locker, getting out my books for my first class. I'm swimming in my thoughts until Grayson comes up to me, followed my Ethan. I try to hide myself blushing and then Grayson speaks up.
"Hey Lydia. Are you okay? I noticed that when you were walking to your car, you were walking really weird. Did you sprain your ankle or something?" He asks, concerned. I don't dare tell him the truth.
"Yeah, last night I think. As I was getting out of my car." I say nonchalantly. I steal a glance of Ethan behind Grayson with a huge smirk plastered on his face. I hate lying to him but if him or anyone ever finds out about this, it's over for all of us. We're fucked.
"Oh okay, I hope you get better soon" He smiles. "I'll see you in a few minutes in class" he says while grabbing and squeezing my arm slightly.
I nod at him and continue getting the books out of my locker. Ethan takes a step closer to me and looks down at me.
"You sure you're okay? Maybe your thighs are sore from something sexual that you and Grayson have done?" He says, grabbing his thigh. I glare at him.
He knows exactly why I'm sore and it's because of him. He grins, knowing that he's getting under my skin.
"Shut the fuck up." I mouth. Ethan smirks at me and walks past me to our first period. I close my locker aggressively and start walking to first period. In first period, the teacher rearranged the desks to where it's three people in a group. And of course, he chose to pair me with Ethan and Grayson. Great. I'm sitting on the end, Ethan is in the middle and Gray on the other end.
As I walk to my desk, I notice both of them staring at me.
"What." I say as I sit down, not making eye contact with either of them. They shake their heads and the teacher begins with the lesson.
I start to think maybe I do regret doing that with Ethan, only because Grayson is so sweet and he doesn't deserve that happening behind his back. Even though Grayson and I aren't together, i still feel awful. My thoughts get cut off by a hand resting on my knee. I automatically know who it is so I don't bother to look. It starts inching further and further up my leg, but then I swat it away. I can see him smirking out of the corner of my eye.
When the class ends, people start getting up to walk to their next class. I bend over to pick up my stuff and feel someone grab my hips and walk very close behind me. I turn around and almost slap the shit out of them, until I realize it's Ethan.
"Fucking stop, I thought I made you promise not to bring it up again." I whisper.
"I didn't say anything about it, maybe you're reading too deep into it." He cocks an eyebrow. For once I don't have a comeback. So I just walk past him, slamming my shoulder into his as I do.
After the school day ends, I start to walk out to my car, but get stopped by Emma.
"Lydia I know we're not friends but you need to know who they really are." Emma starts. I chuckle at her trying to get under my skin.
"Who are you talking about." I say, walking to my car and putting my bag in my trunk.
"Ethan and Grayson, they're not good people. They-"
"And you think YOU are?" I say, cutting her off.
"I don't give a fuck about you or what you have to say, especially what you have to say about Ethan and Grayson. So just do me and everyone else a favor and stay out of my business and I'll do the same." I say, slamming my trunk and pushing a button on my key so that my door opens for me.
"Lydia please, they were involved in your dad's accident." I shut the door in her face.
"They're dangerous" she says through a muffled voice. I just ignore her and drive off.
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What does she mean "they're dangerous?"
How does she even know about my dad... why does she think the twins know...
As I drive home, I get a text from Grayson asking if I wanted to hang out with them at their house and watch them film for a while. After I go home and change into something more comfortable, I decide to just walk over there. I don't need to waste my gas like that.
When I near their house, I can see them inside arguing, kind of panicked. I just walk in without knocking and make my way to where they both are. As I near the living room, I can hear what they're arguing about.
"Dude she cannot know, like ever. It will fuck up everything. It was a mistake, Gray." Ethan panics.
"I know, E, I know. We can't change it and we can't go back and undo it." Gray says. I clear my throat as I walk into the living room. They both jump at the sight of me.
"We didn't hear you come in." Grayson says nervously.
"What was a mistake?" I ask them. They both look at me, at each other and then back at me.
"Uhhh just-"
"Just this girl Ethan hooked up with a while back. He regrets it." Grayson puts on a fake grin. If that were true, it hit me in the heart. Because I hooked up with Ethan, and I sure as hell regret it a little.
"Oh.." I say looking down. "Okay."
I roll my eyes and take a seat in front of their set. It's actually really nice, they have the back drop mounted into the ceiling along with a camera.
Ethan's POV
After that night with Lydia in my car, I've been wanting to keep it going. I don't think Gray and her are technically together, which is good. I just really want her, especially right now.
Back to Lydia's POV
I stood behind the camera while they were filming, playing on my phone and not really paying that much attention. I get a text from Ethan while they were filming.
"We weren't talking about you. I don't regret anything." The text read. I smile to myself then look up at Ethan. He's grinning at me from across the room.
After a while, I decided to mess with Ethan, since something like that night in the car will probably never happen again. I give Ethan dirty looks and tease him, Grayson is so oblivious.
Ethan sternly stares at me, and silently telling me to stop. But he is obviously getting turned on by the expression he's trying to hide. He suddenly snaps out of it, looking at Grayson to make sure he doesn't notice what's happening. I know that I'm probably in for it later, if I let it happen.
After they get done filming, I help them clean up everything and start to make them dinner, since Grayson gets tired of Ethan never eating his food and Ethan refuses to eat Graysons food. So I made avocado toast and cut up some fruit for them. They thank me and sit down to start eating. There's a little bit of awkward silence before I speak up.
"Hey, guys..?" I ask, playing with my thumbs. They both look up at me.
"I want to talk about something, I know it's probably not true but... still." I say, looking up at them. Grayson swallows his food and puts down the avocado toast. Ethan leans back in his chair.
"Emma came up to me today." I say, they both roll their eyes as soon as I mention her name.
"What did she say?" Grayson asks me.
"She was just saying how you guys are dangerous and that you were involved in my dad being-" I stop before I can say the word. I don't even know if I can spit it out.
"Wh-What happened to your dad?" Grayson asks me.
"All I know is that two guys were trying to rob my house, my dad tried to stop them and they murdered him. Then they decapitated him out of boredom." I say, shedding a single tear. I look up at them and both of their faces are ghostly white. Ethan gets up to go to the bathroom, as if he's going to be sick. Grayson drinks out of his glass with his hand shaking.
"Lydia that's terrible, I'm so sorry that happened to you. Someone who would do that should instantly feel guilty." Grayson says looking back down.
"It's not that I'm that sad about it." I say as Ethan comes back out.
"Why aren't you sad about it?" Ethan perks up. I explain everything that he did to me and key points that made me dislike the man that he was. I wasn't that sad about it but it still upset me, that's still my father.
"Well at least you're not still mourning over it, that's good." Ethan says, trying to shine light on the situation.
"Yeah but that's not the point, Ethan." I say getting irritated.
"The point is that I have never told anyone that besides this girl on the plane while I was coming here and my best friend back home, so how the FUCK could Emma know about it?" I say frustrated, standing up from the table and rubbing my face a little bit. I look back at them and they're totally shocked.
"Hey... umm stay right there, our sister is here and I'm going to help her with her stuff, okay?" Grayson says, slowly walking to the door and out to a car. He comes back with luggage and groceries, and a girl.
As soon as I catch a glimpse of the girls face, it makes me wish I had never met Ethan and Grayson. The girl turns around and seems completely shocked to seeing my face.
"Oh my gosh! What a small world." Cameron says, walking over to me and hugging me. I don't hug back, I just pat her shoulders and push her away. That means this bitch told Emma about my father. Who knows what else she told her?
"You guys know each other?" Grayson asks.
"No""yes" we say simultaneously. She looks back at me and smiles.
"I met her on the place. She told me about her da-"
"Don't ever fucking talk about my dad ever again, you got that?" I interrupt her, stepping closer to her.
"I guess you told Emma too? Is that how she knows? You been running your fucking mouth, spreading my business? I'm not about that." I say, making her back into the wall.
"Emma? I didn't say anything to her!" She manages to get out. I'm much shorter than her but she's acting like I'm ten feet tall and bullet proof.
"Bullshit you bitch don't fucking lie to me!" I yell at her. Ethan and Grayson push us away from each other and I try to break out of their grip, which is useless.
"Lydia I swear I didn't say anything to Emma, I promise. Emma is fucking crazy, I'm telling you. Please believe me." Cameron pleads. I finally calm down and Ethan lets me go.
"I don't know what to believe." I purse my lips. Everyone is just staring at me.
"Don't look at me like I'm crazy." I shake my head and walk out the door, slamming it in the process. Grayson comes running after me while I walk to my house.
"Lydia please slow down and talk to me." Grayson catches up to me and grabs my arm. I pull it away.
"How else would Emma know? I never told ANYONE at all, nobody knew besides my mom, Cameron and my best friend back home. No one would DARE share my business like that and then Cameron walks up into your house and starts to tell you guys about my dad? That's bullshit, I don't believe a single moment of it and I don't trust any of it." I say, turning around and starting to walk off again. Grayson grabs my arm again but in a firmer grip.
"Then do you trust me when I say Cameron didn't say anything to anyone about it? That's coming from me, and just me. Do you at least believe me?" Grayson asks, pulling me in by my waist and looking me in the eyes. His eyes shift between both of my eyes and then down to my lips.
"I-" I start to say. I want to believe him, I really do. I want to trust all of them, because trust is very important to me. But I don't know if I can yet.
"I'll see you tomorrow." I say, leaving his grip and walking home. When I get inside, I close the door and slide my back against it, sitting on the floor. I start overthinking and burst into tears. Not because of my dad, but because of how frustrated I am with not knowing if I can trust Ethan and Grayson yet.
If Cameron really didn't tell Emma, then how would she have known? What else does she know?
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