Yours Truly | [Choi Beomgyu x Reader]

Words Of Goodbye

˜*°Ch 7:Words Of Goodbye°*˜

The rest of my day was a blur. I was in pain both mentally and physically. My mind wasn't focused on anything except me going home and hibernating in my room until I die. Once the bell went for last class, I don't rush out, I just slowly shuffled out as people push me out of the way.

I decided that tonight was the night I would officially do it, I would officially end my life and not back out.

There were a few things I was going to do before I did so though. I wander outside and someone who I was needing to see ran up to me.

"Y/N why did you run away from me?" he asked.

I just shrug and kept walking.

"Let me drive you home again, please it is much too cold for you to walk home." he suggests.

That's exactly what I wanted. I was going to cherish this last car ride with him, these last few moments with him.

"Okay."

He grabs my hand and starts leading my to his car. His hand was bigger than mine and was soft and warm. I held onto his hand and my anxiety was coming through.

Please not now, not with this last moment with him.

As if my body understood, my anxiety faded away and my heart started to flutter. He let my hand go and opened the door for me and once I sat comfortably in the passenger seat he closed it. He got into the drivers seat and started up his vehicle. This time, instead of looking outside I looked at him as he drove. I studied his face hard knowing this is the last time I will be able to admire this beautiful boy.

"Okay I know I'm ugly but you don't need to keep staring." he says, quickly look to me seriously.

"Beomgyu you are not ugly, your beautiful." I say, not stuttering at all.

"Is it really possible that a boy like me is beautiful?" he asks.

I smile, "Of course it is. Don't ever say you are ugly again, okay?"

He nods and I then turn to look out the window. I wasn't going to stare forever or his last memory of me would be of me being a creep. My eyes admired the streets that looks to pretty, lightly dusted in snow.

"Y-you know yo-" he stops himself and so I face him again.

"Hm?"

With one hand on the wheel, he scratched the back of his neck.

"N-nothing. Um never mind." he stutters.

I smile at him being shy and turn back to the window, suddenly realizing that we have arrived at my house.

Taking my belt off and picking my bag up, I contemplate on kissing his cheek or not, I mean it will be the last time.

I turn around my kiss his cheek opening the door and hoping out.

"Beomgyu thank you for being so kind to me and thank you for dropping me off again. I wish you the best on your life." I say, fighting back the tears.

He was blushing, holding his cheek but now he was look at me seriously.

"What do you mean by that?" he asks confused.

"I guess you could you say I'm moving away somewhere forever and never coming back." I fake a smile, still struggling to hold back the tears.

"Give me your number than at least so we can stay in contact." he suggests getting out his phone.

"No point Beomgyu. Thank you again." I say, shutting the door and rushing inside.

I make my way to my room and lock the door behind me before falling to my knees, balling my eyes out.