It was said that the Yamaguchi-gumi is the strongest and biggest yakuza clan there is. And in that big family of yakuza, there was a beautiful growing dragon. Cold and heartless. Fearless and strongest. And the youngest chosen one.
At ako yun.
I...
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Sa panaginip ko, nandun si Taiga ang ama ko. Nasa loob sya ng opisina nya nakaupo sa likod ng kanyang mesa at nakayuko at may parang may binabasa. I don't even know why I'm dreaming of my father right now. Ito ang kauna-unahang pagkakataon na dumalaw sya sa panaginip ko sa loob ng dalawang taon mula ng iwan ko ang gokudo.
I wasn't sure if I am in the dream or just simply watching the dream happening. But it's as if I am also in the very room. Feeling the cold breeze coming in from the open window and breathing the same fresh air with Taiga that smells of cherry blossoms from outside. Para bang hindi ako umalis. It was just like the day before I met Pete. And Taiga asked to see me.
"In the end, no matter how Kaide strive to mold you into the person we planned you to become, it wouldn't matter anymore. Right?"
I don't know if he was talking to me or to someone else pero hindi nagalis ng tingin si Taiga mula sa binabasa nya habang sinasabi ang mga yon. Though I somehow felt that it really was for me.
Sandali. Hindi nya kailanman sinabi ang mga yon sakin nung gabing pinatawag nya ko. Well I guess this is just a dream. One that is a product of my imagination. But more importantly, why would I even imagine my father saying that to me? I don't understand what's going on in my head anymore.
"Hin... Hindi ko kayo maintindihan." It was me. And I am shocked too because it was really me with Taiga in that dream.
At kahit alam ko na panaginip lang yon ay hindi ko mapigilan ang makaramdam ng pananabik at higit sa lahat hiya sa mga kasalanang nagawa ko. How I wish I stay in this dream a little longer. Where I can talk to Taiga peacefully without the pressure and the watchful eyes of those people around us.
Because in this dream, I can talk to my father and I can be his daughter.
"When I first saw you I thought you are just like one of those in the myths. A water dragon god. So beautiful in the middle of a chaos. That's why I gave you that name... " out of nowhere he said.
Aaah.. Yes. Those words... Those lines.. I hear it from Taiga everytime, whenever he's in the mood to talk about the origin of my name. It almost feels nostalgic if it weren't a dream.
And this time he lifted his head and stared at me. At doon ko narealize kung gano ko pala namiss ang ama ko. Kahit hindi kami kailanman nagpakita ng totoo naming nararamdaman sa isa't isa. I know he cares for me.
He smiled. And the first time I saw him smile is in this dream. How ironic.
"I paved the path for you Ryu. Because I know it's what you are meant for. Because ...you... are my daughter. Just remember, you have to live no matter what... Don't mess things up."
What he said is so familiar in my ears. Dahil isa rin yon sa mga madalas nyang sabihin sakin kapag pinapatawag nya. It was like he was drilling it into my head. Like he was readying me for something I don't have an idea of.
