temporary | d.s.

7 - wanted you

A couple of rounds later, it's official. I'm drunk. My head is spinning and I don't like it.

"Hey, can we stop playing now. I'm really fucking drunk." I said a little giddy and giggled right in front of him.

"No, it's just getting started."

"I'm just gonna go outside and breathe some air." I said wanting him to come with me. Well, too fool of me because he wouldn't.

"Suit yourself." He said as he continued to play that stupid game.

I walked my way outside and let the fresh air hug me. I really shouldn't come to this party. My head hurts and I don't think I can cycle all the way home. I wish Dani was here, well I don't because he will scold me for this. Saying that I shouldn't have come, well I realised that also asshole. Why am I bullying my best friend though and why am I talking to myself? So this is what alcohol effects people.

I started dialing someone and put it in my ear. I really don't know who I was calling but my body needs someone to talk to right now. Oh shit. What if I called my mom and I'm drunk.

"What?!" He shouted and good thing I didn't called my mom but this is worse.

"Hey." I said in the most basic white girl voice as possible. "Someone got her panties on a twist."

"Dream are you drunk?" He asked his voice laced with worry. I like his voice, so caring and sweet. Wait, what the heck?

"No." I try to sound like I'm not drunk. "You don't have evidence and you can't smell my mouth right now so you don't have the right to accuse me." I said reasoning myself and I don't think that is really what I sound to him.

"Dream, you are."

"No I'm not." I said and I started laughing at what I see.

"What was that?" He said and he is clearly worried right now, I heard some shuffling but I'm too drunk to mind that.

"The trees are dancing. I think  they're performing for me." I said and they really are. This is probably the funniest thing I've ever seen.

"Dream Lively McBroom, stay where you are, I'm coming." He said as I heard the engine of his car started.

"Ok, the door's open."

I sit there and watched a great performance of the trees. They really have talent, I wish I have those moves because I'm telling you, if I were to dance, I look like those noodle mascots in front of a new mall or a car wash. I wish I have a talent, I'm just a piece of shit occupying space and I don't like it. I'm not like those gurls where they have the curves on right places, I don't have the face that a magazine or simply someone would capture. All I have are the lines on my hips as well as the fat that hangs in front of it. That's probably why no one likes me.

A few moments later a giraffe came, oh Daniel came. "Let's go, I told  you-"

"That this wasn't your scene and here you are drunk as hell and I might say you look ugly when you're not drunk and damn you look uglier when you're drunk." I said finishing his sentence.

"No you're no-"

"Shh, stop shouting the universe is sleeping." I really don't know what I'm saying and as I finished that sentence, I am taller and I looked down at Dani who is now giving me a piggy back ride. He stayed silent until we reached his car and I slide in the front seat. It's really ironic that last week, we were on each other's places. He got in and now I'm reallywaiting for his sermon. Nothing. Just silence as we drive.

"You can scold me now." I said trying to break the silence.

"I would love to but it will mean nothing if you're in this state." He said not looking at me and just focusing on the road. He is mad.

"I know and I'm probably also gonna cry and I'm an ugly crier and I don't want to scare you away." I said.

"No you're not." He said, now finally looking at me. "If you scared me away, I should probably be gone from the first time we met." He explained and well he's right. "You are not ugly, you are beautiful in your own way. You don't see yourself when you're smiling and when the sun hits your face. You only see yourself when you're in the mirror so you are not ugly ok?" He said and puts his hand on top of mine on my lap.

"You know what, I like like you Dani." As soon as those words left my mouth I drifted off from space.