I'm in front of the school entrance with Sabrina. The school bell rings and everyone gets in. Sabrina says goodbye and we go to our classrooms. My classmates are messing around. I go to a classmate I do really like, let's call her Alicia. Alicia is a bad ass, if she doesn't likes something, se will let you know. I love how honest she is, you don't see a lot of people like her in ur life. She is by far the only one in my class who understands my fear. I like to mess around with her and sometimes we have a lot of deep conversation about family. There are just a few things I don't like about her, she smokes, she gets easily angry and forgives to fast.
Suddenly the classroom door opens up and we go inside and sit down, we got history and geography now.
Like I said,I love school. It helps me to focus on other things in my daily life. I sit down and take my things.
«Hey J how are you?» My seat neighbour asks me. «I'm pretty fine,thanks» I try to avoid a conversation. He's not a bad guy, but sometimes I really wanna hit him for being as irresponsible and forgetful as he is. He also makes fun of my phobia and teases me with touching my things or intrude my private space with touching my shoulder or something like that. He's just stupid,that's it.
On the other a guy who is trying to hard to impress me, there are even rumours that he has a crush on me, but I honestly don't care. He is tall as hell and is really annoying sometimes.
Well there is actually no person that doesn't annoys me at least once a day in this class.
I make sure I have everything for class and then wait until it starts. Everything fine, lots of interesting stuff like always. Everything seems to be ok,until...«So, please take out the papers i gave you at the beginning and start to answer the question, but just with pencil please». I take one of my pencils and start to answer the questions. My left seat neighbour whispers to me «Can you give me a pencil please? I forgot to bring my pencil case.» I look at him «No,sorry». I try not to look at him,but I can imagine what his thinking now.
Even though a lot of people know that I don't let anyone borrow my things,they keep on asking and so I keep on felling bad. I think that's one of the main reasons i still have no friends in this class.
I don't wanna end up alone. Like always. I don't want to go through that again. I just can't stop thinking about that. This sucks, I hate being this sensitive.
School ends. I'm here sitting on the bus station and i still can't get it out of my mind.
Sabrina ends school later, so I'll have to return home alone. I've already put of my gloves cuz it's getting hotter.
At this time there are just a few people in the bus,so it's ok. The bus arrives, I enter the bus and sit down. One of my classmates has to get out on the same stop as I do,so I don't have to press the stop button.
I need to breathe.
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Touch.
AléatoireI miss being alive. Every touch of something unknown...it feels like it's crawling on me,it tries to break into my body and it's going to kill me. My body feels weak. I'm afraid. I miss touching thinks like I used to. Maybe u will understand why. I...
