I miss you so much.
I'm gonna be strong.
For as long as I need to be.
But nights like these,
I just can't do it.
I opened the letter "for when you're missing me" a minute ago.
Clutching your shirt in one arm, and Puff in the other.
I started balling before I even opened the envelope..
And even more while reading it.
There's still tears flowing down my cheeks as I write this.
Past you is right though.
We'll get through this.
But even though I'm growing and changing so much,
This is hell for me.
Being without you is the most miserable I've ever been.
But it's okay, because I'm doing it for you.
I'd go through any amount of hell to be with you.
The letter said we should video call.
If only.
Honestly even a voice message would help.
I miss even the sound of your voice so much.
I don't know how you're feeling,
Since all I have to go off of are really short writings.
But I hope you're hanging in there.
Better than me anyways.
I don't know what else to write.
I just don't know.
I love you.
Honestly more than I can even comprehend sometimes.
Please don't let me go.
Please don't lose feelings for me.
Please come back someday.
Please be my friend and talk to me whenever you're able.
But for now I'll keep pushing through my misery,
In hope of a tomorrow with you.
I love you
