There sitting in the shower floor was camila her clothes drenched as her body she was shivering and sobbing whispering words I couldn't understand.
"oh my God" Lauren cried as ally hugged her.
"harry get me a blanket" I called out after a few seconds I saw harry standing at the door his face pale hurt and worry in his eyes. he quickly passed me the blanket I turned off the shower head and covered her in a blanket. I pulled her out of the shower and lead her barefoot to the warm living room. harry and the others following or making warm coffee and chocolate. as I sat her down she wrapped herself in a ball. jade and the other girls gave me a strange look.
"Camila" I rubber her shoulder I felt her stiff under my touch
"don't touch me" she cried
"please don't hurt me" I heard her whisper
"what happened Camila"? I asked worried
"it felt so real" she sobbed
"like I thought it was it"
"I thought it was over..." she sobbed
I saw her shaking violently having a panic attack crying and whispering. the boys gave me a worried glance
"Camila" I said tilting her chin to face me
"look at me look at my eyes and breath steadily"
"breath in.... breath out" she looked me in the eyes her eyes no longer the dark pained glossed color more like a lighter color.
she looked at me straight in the eye.
"you promised" she stated her makeup messed up her eyeliner rolling down her cheeks
And then I saw it she looked destroyed she didn't seem the same something about the way she looks at us the way her body tenses when I pet her shoulder something was up.
"what is she talking about niall" harry asked
"you said you'd protect me niall you weren't there" she spaced out talking a tear rolling down her cheek.
" I made you hot chocolate de la abuelita" Lauren called to Camila she made no move to get the cup. I held it for her asking her if she wanted it she didn't answer then Lauren and I switched places Camila's head was on Lauren's knees Lauren would play with her hair and try to talk to her Camila wouldn't talk nor smile.
she had finally fallen asleep when we all got together discussing the matter.
"I've never seen her like this ever I'm scared liam " ally cried
"that's not Camila that girl over there is not anywhere near who Camila is" normani stated
"what happened to her"? Lauren cried
"We weren't there when she needed us its all our fault if she's like this" Dinah stated fiddling with her hand but I could notice her damp checks we all sat there saying nothing just tears rolling down out cheeks.
CamilaPOV
"please don't" I cried out at the drunken man that had pushed me against the wall.
"stay away from me"!!! I yelled
"please leave me alone" I cried as he tried to pry my shirt off.
"please"
NiallPOV
"please don't" we heard a light voice yell
"stay away from me"!!! we turned around to a sweating, sleeping screaming Camila.
"please leave me alone"
"please" she cried twisting and turning harry ran to her and shook her she threw Harry's hands off her and silently cried we stared at her. what could have been so bad? I asked myself.
"call Austin he'll know what to do" ally commanded
"she will only talk to him"
"no" harry protested
"I don't think its your place to decide" Lauren stated coldly. Dinah pulled out her phone and handed it to me.
I dialled his number and sat on the floor on my knees next to Camila .
"Dinah" his sleep deep voice answered
"no Austin its Niall we need your help"
"is it Camila he asked alarmed"
"yeah she came back an hour ago shaking and whispering stuff she had a panic attack and she doesn't want us touching her something wrong Austin" I stated
"put it on speaker let me talk to her" he stated
"camz?" he asked I could see Camila focus on the phone in my hands
"Austin" she answer shakily
"yeah camz whats wrong baby girl"? he asked
"Austin" her voice cracked tears streaming down
"camz what wrong babe please talk to me" he pleaded
"its nothing to worry about I'll tell you tomorrow " she stated calming down whipping her tears away
"okay I love you Camila"
"I love you too culo" she finaly smiled "stop calling me that" he laughed and ended the call
"can you please tell us whats wrong"? I pleaded she took a shaky breath and looked at all of us.
"you don't care" she stated her light brown eyes changing dark brown
"we do please tell us" zayn pleaded
" Has anything so bad happened to you that you don't want to remember that the image is stuck in your brain and you try not to think or not to remember" she asked her eyes watery
"no"
"well I don't wanna remember I don't want to! I don't want the image in my head i could never escape it when I go to sleep I see it when I think of it see it" she stated
"it hurts but I don't need anyone" she stated quietly
"I'm going to take a shower" she stated standing up she walked out of the room and we looked at each other.
"what just happened"?
"she hates us" Lou stated
"she's different and not in a good way its strange" I stated
CamilaPOV
As I undresses I could see the scratches and bruises on my body. before I had ran out I had changed into sweats and a long sleeved black t shirt with vans so they didn't notice the bruises. My whole body hurt I could stop and think to what happened I could have gotten rapped the guy was at least 23 blonde hair and strong he kissed up my neck and hit me on the wall every time I would call for help he would scratch or punch me. I turned on the shower head and stepped in I couldn't feel more worthless than I am feeling know. I feel used and abused I feel dirty. I can still feel his hands trying to roam my body. before I knew it I was crying and scratching my whole body with soap trying to erase the gross memories. As the water fell on my head I just thought about how bad my life is at the moment I hate my life! I hate everyone. I hate harry. I hate them! I hate them all go making me believe they cared! I HATE the guy who tried to do this to me!! I hate them. I've never felt such hatred toward this world!!! but I do I hate HATE it!!!! why does everything have to happened to me?! I know I might not be the best person but why?! I don't get why god would do this to me?! I just don't get it I try so damn hard, so damn hard to be what everyone wants and when I do they replace me with someone else I just don't get it?!?!!! I just want to be free somewhere where pain doesn't exist!! somewhere were people will actually care for me I wanna be free I wanna be like everyone else!!! I want to die...... what's the point of living if your in pain?
