I wanted you.
I wanted you to see my heart.
I wanted you to see through why useless words.
I wanted you to see my love.
I wanted you to see what I had to offer.
I wanted you to see that I wasn't going to just leave you like the others.
I wanted you to see what your spell had done to me.
I wanted you to see that I could never just "up and leave."
I wanted you.
I wanted you to know that no matter what was said, I would never take anything to heart.
Nevermind, I did.
I took a lot to heart but it was only because I thought every word you said was pure gold.
Not filled with venom...
I thought that maybe... just maybe... you'd mean it.
I wanted you to know that I loved you with everything I could give from my dainty heart..
My heart is shattered..
I'm broken..
Torn in two...
I thought you could handle me.
I thought you could put the pieces back together and that's why I wanted you to...
I thought that maybe you'd see past my tiny smile and just hug me and tell me you loved me...
But you never did.
Maybe... I was too good at it...
I wanted you to see that I wasn't giving up.
I wanted you to see that I wasn't giving up on us, on you, or on myself..
I couldn't.
I wanted you.
I wanted you to know me like the back of your hand.
I wanted you to be able to spit out facts about me on the spot.
I wanted you to say the things that you felt scared to say...
I wanted you to know me.. for me.
I wanted you to be able to understand my slight shrugs and my non-tight hugs.
I wanted you to see that I wasn't happy with myself.
I wanted you to see that I've been waiting hand and foot for your move.
I wanted you to take a walk in my shoes.
I wanted you to love me the way that I loved you...
Oh my God... I just wanted you.
Even after everything that happened.
I wanted you...
