My Life

Jason's truth

     Now in my last chapter i talked about how Jason made me have something to look foward to everyday. That was a lie. he made me want to die. I was in denial and thought that everything was okay. Everything was not okay but no one knew what was really happening me. I was getting damaged and no one knew. Just me.

      The second week of us dating he sent me a picture of his private area. I was discusted and mad but he said sorry and for some reason after that i wasn't mad anymore. After that happened he started to use that picture against me. He started calling me names and i couldn't call him anything back because he said he would send another picture. So i just let him call me names because i was afraid of him sending a picture again. He held that picture over me like it was a knife at my neck, and if i said anything back he killed me or in real life sent another picture.

     I never told anyone what was happening so i was on my own. I started to cry everyday after school. I loved him or at least i thought i did. One day my bestfriend texted Jason and asked him why he liked me. The weird thing about what he said is that he said that (sorry for my language) i don't take shit from anyone. and he's right i don't, but when it came to him that was different? 

     I realized that i needed to tell someone so i texted my cousin who we will call Jenna. There aren't even words to express how much i love her and thank her for everything she has done for me. She is such an amazing person and i love her so much. She helped me and reasured me and told me everything was okay. When i told her i started to cry because i realized what i was doing to myself. She explained to me that i needed to leave him because he was only making my depression worse. And she was right. 

     I ended up texting my bestfriend and asked her a bunch of questions about what was happening between me and Jason except i used her and her boyfriend in that situation. Every question she said she would brake up with him so finally i let her ask me why i was asking her all of those questions. I told her the truth and she was shocked but she stuck with what she said and she told me to brake up with him. I got a text from him a couple minutes later asking "is there ever going to be a day out of this week that your not mad?" and i lost it. "I'VE ONLY BEEN MAD ALL WEEK BECAUSE OF YOU" i sent him and then i said "i'm done" he was confused and asked what i was done with "i'm done with everything. I'm done with you. we are over" i sent before blocking him.