But God Forced Me to Reincarnate!

The Cruel, Inevitable Fate

After that, Chloe and I spent the whole night trying to simplify things so that Cyan would understand. Thankfully, as Cyan was originally a bright child, he quickly understood things and promised that he'd keep it as secret, and that he would only address me like that in private.

The funny thing was... Cyan secretly hoped that he had another father that loved and pampered him, too. He quickly imagined that he might be adopted to Hartmann family due to some kind of reason that was ridiculous.

Boris might treat Dius better, but he didn't completely disregard Cyan as well. Although I must say that he might care about Cyan as Boris thought of Cyan as a useful pawn.

I noticed that nobles often treat their children as nothing than mere pawns, but... I didn't understand how they could do so. I could never view Cyan as such.

If this was another thing that differed between nobles and commoners... then I wonder which one is better, being born into a wealthy noble family, or being born into a poor commoner family that's warmer? Or is it better to just be all alone just like how I was? I couldn't really compare them.

That night, when I asked Chloe of Cyan's happy reaction instead of confusion and anger, Chloe laughed and told me that it was obvious, as Cyan spent most of his days with me and that he bonded more with me than with Hillde-sama. Nevertheless, I guess this result was for the best.

From that day onwards, Cyan no longer seemed to care about Hillde's impression of him. He stopped wanting to get closer to Hillde and he seemed to be more cheerful. On the other hand, he didn't hold back in rushing off to me and launching his surprise hug to me. After the bedtime stories, he even wanted me to kiss his forehead...

Seeing his expectant eyes, I could no longer hold back. He already found out that I was his mother, and he only asked that in private, so why not give him that?

I gently pressed my lips on his forehead—just like how I did when he was still a baby. Cyan giggled happily.

"Firis, I love you!"

"...I love you too, Cyan."

I finally could say it in front of him. This felt liberating. And warm.

Cyan was stunned for a moment, not expecting me to reply. But in a short moment, a smile showed in his whole face as he sweetly said, "I love you very much, Mommy!"

Since we became closer as a real mother and son, Chloe often joked on how Cyan would grow up to have a mother complex. I denied it with my whole heart, obviously.

Since that day, things turned up to be happier for us. But that didn't mean it would erase every grievance and hardship from our life. As years passed by, I thought that the small amount of happiness was able to compromise for any hardship we encountered.

For some reason, Dius-sama liked to find some troubles with Cyan. He liked to tease and bully Cyan, but Cyan could endure... Only when Dius-sama tried to shift his target to me or the other servant working for him would Cyan get angry. And that got us into troubles... but I was proud of Cyan for his endurance and kindness.

Sadly, since Cyan entered the same school as Dius-sama, the school which was exclusive for nobles... and as a result of Dius-sama's treatment of Cyan, Cyan didn't really have any friend.

Even the rumor about Cyan being an illegitimate child was leaked within the school—I assumed it was a rumor that Dius-sama purposely leaked in order to make Cyan all alone. After all, the noble children were reluctant to befriend someone of a bad position like Cyan.

Though the Hartmann family wanted to hide that fact the most, it was leaked by the next heir of the family... how ironic. But Dius-sama didn't get any punishment. Hillde-sama vented everything to us. And Boris-sama only tried to control the situation so that nobody would oppose the Hartmann family due to this rumor—even if it was by force.