i watched you [norenmin]

4.

i watched you under the starry sky. your eyes were wandering around, sometimes stopping at some random constellations. you were smiling, your body tucked under a big orange blanket. our fingers were intertwined, we were in the woods camping. with my other hand, i held renjun. the moment he placed himself next to me, you looked at me weirdly. jealousy lingered your eyes, renjun only chuckled. i decided to tease you a bit by wrapping both of my arms around his neck while he pulled me closer, and hid his nose in the crook of my neck. your slightly offended stare cracked us up even more. eventually, we invited you to our hug, tangling or legs together. the moment was beautiful, i enjoyed it with every inch of my being. having my best friend on one side, and the love of my life on the other was simply spectacular. you two were all i have ever wished for. i fell asleep in your arms.
the following Monday i watched you enter our class a bit later than usual. i told renjun that i found it a bit weird, he agreed. you didn't sit with us, you aimed for the back seat. during lunch you finally came to us, acting as if nothing happened. there was a weird aura surrounding you, a strong smell hit my nose the moment you sat besides me. after school i watched you head straight home instead of staying behind, like we always do. i told injun about my worries for you, you were acting strangely unusual and neither one of us liked it. by accident, i also told him about my undying love towards you. he smiled a small sad smile, telling me he also feels that way towards you. we didn't fight for you, we know better than that. instead, we talked about you all night, sharing all the things we like about you. he was truly in love, it was adorable. it almost made me give you up, since i thought he was the right one for you. he also seemed to make you happy, so i started building a plan about how to get you guys together. ignoring the pain was hard, it took me some time to convince myself that this is for a good cause, which was making you the happiest man alive. your happiness was all that mattered to me, it didn't matter what was the source of it.