bitter sweet | cole robert brock | #wattys2019

eighteen

i put on my bikini, slipping on high waisted shorts over the top. i put on my shoes and leave my straight hair flowing. i grab my bag, phone, keys, purse and sunglasses wandering downstairs to be greeted by both brennen and colby.

"you ready?" colby asks as he smiles at me and i nod smiling. i look at brennen, seeing him staring me up and down, making me feel a little weird.

"let's go" colby says, his arm snaking around my shoulders. we say goodbye to everyone and get into brennens truck. i sit in the back middle seat as brennen told me to do while he sets up his camera. he starts it as he also starts the car.

"so i'm here with my daddy and this cutie" brennen says and i raise my eyebrow. "i'm your daddy" i speak up, colby looks at me. "obviously" brennen smirks and i wink.

"and this is the cutie" he points to colby and he laughs.

"does your fans know you are dating? i'll cut this out if it's a no" brennen questions and i look at colby.

"well kinda but we didn't tell them" he says and brennen knows. "so should i keep this in or?" he asks and colby looks back at me. i just stare at him, not knowing what to say.

"addison" he says. "you shou-ld uh cut it out. i just don't want to cause any more drama than i already have" i say awkwardly and brennen nods, stopping at a red light as colby turns around. i glance at him in the camera view finder, seeing a slightly angry yet disappointed look on his face.

"so we are here" we all get out of his truck, wandering down to the pier. i don't say anything as brennen and colby walk in front of me, pretty much forgetting me, like i'm invisible. kinda hurts not going to lie but i'm used to it.

memories from high school and being invisible flood into my head. stuff about everyone ignoring me and acting like i don't exist because they wanted me to be dead. i feel a lump in my throat form as my pace starts slowing down. the boys don't notice and i look for a bathroom, or somewhere to hide as brennen vlogs.

i spot a bathroom and run to it, walking inside. i feel my lip tremble as i lean against the sink. the emptiness of the bathroom making me feel worse. i let out a shaky breath, trying not to cry.

an old lady walks in, she sees me, a concerned look on her face. "you okay lovely?" she asks kindly and i nod, trying to be strong and not cry.

"come with me sweetheart. let's get you something to cheer you up. it's a good day after all" she says and i go to protest but she stops me, her kind sweet smile making me feel a little better, she leads me out of the bathroom and i look around. no brennen and colby.

"what's got you down?" she asks kindly as we walk towards some stalls. "i feel invisible" i tear up a little, "i'm supposed to be here with my boyfriend and his friend but they were acting like i wasn't here and i didn't know what to do and i felt like running" i admit, a weird yet refreshing feeling coming over me, like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

"oh honey i'm so sorry." she gives me a kindhearted smile and i give her a small smile back. "if it's any help, i used to feel like that too. in highschool, everyone acted like i was invisible" she says as i spot brennen and colby in the distance.

"i'm sorry that happened" i say softly and she shakes her head. "it just taught me to cherish every moment i get with the people i love" her phone dings and she grabs it from her bag. "oh! it's my granddaughter. i have to go sweetheart but i hope you do have fun today" she gives me a smile. "thank you. you too" i say and she walks away. i sigh, feeling alone again.

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it's been a few hours, i've just been walking around alone. brennen and colby haven't noticed, i can tell. it's like they actually forgot about me.