This summer changed my life. I normally don't like change, I don't know if I do yet. So I'm confused as what I'm supposed to think with all the things I've got. I've got new friends, two that I would never trade or want to ruin. Now I don't know what to do cause I've reached the peak of friends. Like these two new friends are literally so good I don't even know how they can be so good. They change my mood oftennnnn. Good friends need good friends so I'm trying my absolute best to be the perfect friend. With that being said I have a lot of burden, responsibility and such things can really put someone down when the friendship isn't going the way you planned even tho you've made so much effort. I think that's the worst feeling I've gotten so far. I'm afraid, I'm scared this is just a waste of time. Having these friends for a year and then we're gonna split up like nothing. I wish I could stay with my new friends and create new experiences and go on adventures and so much more. But that's just selfish of me, holding them like I own them. I wish there's was something that made you sure you are gonna have them for the longest of times. I'm afraid to say this to them directly cause I can say this words because of the trust I have in them but I'm not sure they will feel the same way. I don't want to act like the innocent cute little boy but I do think there are some good people in this world and I've found two of them, my intentions with them are pure and that's why I lay my trust with them.
