My bad boy

Chapter 20

Olivia's POV

I didn't want Shawn to only want to talk about this. "yea" I said. "I'm sorry I rushed out of your room earlier. when I saw you with jack I was upset because it hurt that you moved on so quick." he said. "I'm sorry Shawn it's just if I wouldn't have moved on, I would still be in my room crying right now." "I know.... me too" "wait you have a girlfriend?" "yea we texted before you moved away and when you did we started dating." "well Shawn you just got upset about me moving on and you are saying you moved on already too?" "Well if I didn't move on then I would never and I would still be also crying. Listen Olivia I still love you and I'm only dating Amanda because she reminds me of you. I can't be around her long because I would think she's you. so I leave and cry. and I can't stop it's uncontrollable. I don't think jack is right for you. me and you are perfect for each other." "Shawn I'm sorry I love you too but if I leave jack he would be broken." "and you don't think I'm broken?" he pulled out a folded piece of paper from his back pocket an handed it to me. "read this when you have time. I don't want it back. keep it." I could see him getting teary eyed which made me. "I have to go. I'm sorry." I ran out of his room. barged in mine and slammed my door. I jumped on my bed and sobbed into my pillow. nash came running in my room. "what's wrong I heard your door slam?!" he said. "sh-sh-Shawn-s-s-said-h-he-s-still-l-l-loves-m-me." I said sobbing In between. "shhhh it's okay everything is going to be fine." nash held me and rocked me back and forth. "shhhh,shhh" he kept saying. after about an hour nash left and I went to bed. I love jack but I also love Shawn. I can't choose between them. I got up and grabbed the piece of paper Shawn gave me. I ran back to my bed and turned on the light beside it. I opened the paper and on the top it said 'the weight' the words were lyrics to a song that he wrote. he wrote a song about me? I read the lyrics.

I wanna go back, forget that it's over. Paint it in black when you left me alone. and I never knew she was sleeping next door with the kid I grew up with and I can't go back to her anymore no. you tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay. and you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away. and when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks no I can't lift the weight. put you in the past. try to forget you cause it's over. and every time you ask I pretend I'm okay. you're inside my head. in the middle of the night when I don't feel right I dream I could hold you. and I can't go back to you anymore, yeah. you tell me you were happier with him but you want me to stay. and you tell

Me that you needed time but you pushed me away and when you try to take me back my heavy heart just breaks but I can't lift the weight. and I can't lift the weight. And I can't lift the weight no I can't lift the weight yea you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks. but I can't lift the weight no I can't lift the weight yea you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks. And I can't lift the weight no I can't lift the weight yea you lower your standards and I raise the steaks but I can't lift the weight no I can't lift the weight. you tell me your were happier with him but you want me to stay. and you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away. and when you try to take me back my heavy heart just breaks but I can't lift the weight. and I can't lift the weight. you tell me you were happier with him and. you want me to stay. and you told me that you needed time but you pushed me away. and when you try and take me back you say someday you will change. but I don't wanna wait.

I finished and my eyes were getting teary again. I ran to Shawn's door knocking on it. he opened the door and i saw that his eyes were red and puffy.I jumped on him hugging him. "shawn I never knew you felt this way." He didn't say anything. he just looked down at me and kissed me. "I'm sorry I-I just couldn't help myself." he said. "Shawn don't worry it's our little secret." I left him sanding at his door. What have I got myself into.

A/N hey guyss!! I know this is supposed to be about jack but its going to be about Shawn for a little while. sorry😁 but don't worry I have a lot planned for the future😏😏 ily~Olivia✌