Midnight Showers Bleach FF

Chapter 2

Ichigo awoke in a panic when he found that he was surrounded by low-level hollows. He grabbed his zangetsu and started plowing through the hollows, devouring them all as he went not necessarily because he wanted to, but Shiro had taken a fair amount of control away from him because of the sleepy daze he was in. Unfortunately, the hollows just kept coming, and his spiritual pressure was getting more stressed out. He was just about to try and shunpo on the sandy ground to get away, which he knew wouldn't work when he felt two familiar spiritual pressures approach him; they belonged to Starrk and Grimmjow. It made Ichigo and his hollow even more on edge. The urge to run away increasing tenfold as soon as both alphas were visible to the stressed-out hybrid. Ichigo immediately looked for an escape route he knew his alphas would want answers and for him to come with them, but he didn't want to be anywhere near him the alphas were clearly not concerned with his well being because as soon as they saw the orange-haired teen, they started to walk away. He already realized this, though, since neither one had stopped him from leaving even though they were awake. After that, neither one had looked for him either as far as Ichigo knew. Although Ichigo knew they didn't care, the blatant abandonment from both his alphas hurt more than Ichigo cared to admit. He debated between running away from the hollows or just letting them consume him and his children. He decided that he would rather be done with all of this misery now rather than draw it out and see his children get killed in front of him or while he was in labor. Even Shiro agreed with the decision as he was hit with the realization that no one cared for them anymore to any real extent. Grimmjow and Starrk felt their mate's reiatsu take on an even more desperate call for help, but that wasn't what surprised the ex-espadas it was the defeated feel to it. They were confused and worried as to why the once firey and defiant teen's reiatsu was consumed with despair and defeat. It didn't make sense them all it had taken was for them to walk away from the beta before he had initiated self-destruct. The alphas didn't have time to contemplate the oddity before the betas reiatsu faded to the point they could barely tell it was there, and what was left was screaming at the alphas to help them, and they also sensed the reiatsu of cubs. It took a few seconds to register in each of their brains that their mating with Ichigo had produced cubs. That had been months ago, which also meant the beta had been carrying alone for months without either alpha near him, then they just left him. They felt like idiots, they had probably just solidified Ichigo's view that he was an abandoned beta by not only one but two alphas. Grimmjow felt like an idiot; he had abandoned his pregnant beta and was about to let him die. He hadn't lost a mate since he was a young adjuchas and now he was an arrancar and he was about to lose the most powerful mate he had ever had if he didn't speed his ass up and save his beta so mid Sonido he released Starrk couldn't since Lilynette was still in Las Noches with everyone else. When he arrived at the scene, Ichigo was in his hollow form just sitting there as several of the hollows chomped on him. They didn't seem to be doing more than leaving minor wounds that would heal quickly, but it still was more than a tad disconcerting when he saw that his beta was putting up no fight. He promptly dispatched all of the hollows with Starrk. After all, the hollows were gone, and none seemed to be near their location any more the hollow transformed back to the human/ shinigami form.
Ichigo was completely confused at the alphas who had just supposedly abandoned him coming back and killing all of the hollows that dared approach him. After changing back out of his full hollow form, he just stared at the two alphas tears brimmed in his eyes, he tried to keep his composure to not show them how weak he felt and how much they had hurt him. Grimmjow was patrolling around the area while Starrk kept an eye on the beta. Ichigo was slowly becoming more frustrated and confused as to why they were here. These feelings just made him want to cry even more, but he would not let that happen, so sadness, frustration, and confusion turned into pure fiery rage. Ichigo knew precisely what to do with that.
Once Grimmjow made his way back to where he and Starrk were Ichigo took the opportunity to finally get the answers he was looking for. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TWO IDIOTS DOING HERE!" he screeched not waiting for an answer he continued his rant "YOU LEFT ME HERE! YOU SAW ME IN TROUBLE CALLING FOR HELP, AND YOU WALKED AWAY!"
"Well, we thought you could handle it and wouldn't appreciate our attempt to help you." Grimmjow said, trying to put an early stop to this because he knew if this continued, his mate was going to plant both his and Starrk's asses in the ground. Szayel would have to spend the next few weeks patching them up and keeping Harribel from turning them both into rugs.
"WELL, THEN WHAT ABOUT AFTER OUR MATING, AS FAR AS I KNOW, NEITHER OF YOU JACK ASSES EVEN LOOKED FOR ME!"

"Well, did it ever occur to you that abandonment works both ways. You left us without a word, then you suddenly show up here calling for help, and we thought you wouldn't want to see us but when we realized you were pregnant and weren't fighting back any more we knew that Harribel would have our hides if we didn't help you." This time Starrk replied calmly, hurt lacing his voice. Neither he nor Grimmjow expected Ichigo to break down crying on the ground at the statement.

"I really did deserve what they said I am a monster; I should have just stayed away; I am only causing more pain wherever I go." Ichigo sobbed
 They stared as their beta was wracked with guilty self-deprecating sobs that showed just how much he was hurting. Something had happened during those five and a half months before they found him. Whatever it was, it had shaken the previously unshakeable warrior to his core. Starrk was more than a little shell shocked, looking at the sobbing beta next to him. He hadn't meant for Ichigo to take it so hard it was supposed to be a statement that made him think maybe even apologize. However, he was not expecting to have him break down like he had. Starrk was unsure whether he should comfort him or not; it was a toss-up how Ichi would react. As time wore on, the sobbing only got worse, and he had started rocking back and forth saying sorry repeatedly bearing his head in his hands. Even though his mind was still trying to catch up his body was moving on instinct to comfort the beta. He wrapped his arms around him just letting Ichigo cry into his shoulder.