Depression and bargaining

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Silence rung in his ears, what had he done?
What had he let destroy her?
He begged for her to scream, cry, do something other than lie in her own drying blood. It hurt so damn much, the weight of everything.
Dead by her own hands.
The demon inside her had told him.
She'll be dead by her own hands and you can    do nothing but cry.
Even as the vague sounds of Jessie calling his name rung through the air, he didn't get up. He'd let this happen, never once asking how much the weight of life had worn down on her.
He deserved the pain of slowly starving for
letting her deal with it on her own.
His Rose, wilted, withered, and dead.
"I'll never leave you." He promised as a sob built up in his chest. "Not until you come back to me."
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"Fraitar, it's over..." Jessie whispered dragging him to his feet. He'd broken down again, after he'd promised to stop. "It's been five years, she's not coming back."
"Jessie," he muttered, the weight of so many eyes on him made him choke on his words. "I'm sorry."
"It's fine, I'm going to the band lock-in. Just send Raven to come get me." She said before turning to leave.
"Jessie-"
"Fraitar, I said I'm going to the band lock-in. I'll see you tomorrow, good bye." She said, before running over to her friend.

Failure.... His mind echoed, you've failed her last wish.
He had, after Emma's death he'd distanced himself from Jessie. His daughter was never at the forefront of his mind, his grief had controlled him for nearly five years. He'd let it take over his mind and thoughts, he had welcomed its darkness and relished in the pain it had brought him; he'd let her die and let the voices overtake her own, it was only fair for him to feel her pain.

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