Today I was at both my therapist and the physiotherapist. The scale showed the number 44kg and last week I was at 43.8 kg. It feels like a have been gaining weight way to fast. I have not been better at anything. I still feel just as sick as before. I have not learned how to eat like I should. I have not learned how to not over exercise or how to feel good. Last time I went through recovery it was so much easyer. I found my motivation in two minuites after going to BUP for the first time and then things went in the right direction. Ofcourse it was hard and I fell back some times but nothing as bas as this. In the end it all took a turn and instead of feeling to fat I felt to skinny. I was able to eat without exercising afterwards and I felt so much better. But this time the disorder holds me to tight and I dont know how or if I can get out. Everything is just hopeless.
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My diary through anorexia and depression
Non-FictionI poste some pages every day! This is pages from my diary that I wrote when I was in the depth of my anorexia and depression. I'm posting this to spread awarness about the struggle people with anorexia and depression go through every day and how har...
