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JAKE'S POV
School was over and i was getting back home alone. Marylin my best friend had one class more and then she would go home, and she told me that maybe i can wait for her to go back home together because she didn't want to go alone. I wish I could stay an hour for her, I really want that but unfortunately I couldn't. My mom text me in the middle of the class and said:

Mom💖: JAKE PLEASE RUN HOME AFTER SCHOOL SOMETHING REALLY INPORTANT HAPPEND AND I NEED YOU.

Fav son❤️: What happened mom, I'm in class, tell me.

Mom💖: Don't worry baby I'm handling the problem on my own... for now..... I just need you after school to come back home as quickly as you can.

Fav son❤️: Mom I'm worrying. Please just tell me.

Mom💖: It's about dad.

Fav son❤️: What happened???!!!!

Mom💖: I know you will be sad and very upset...

Fav son❤️: MOM. PLEASE TELL ME BEFORE I HAVE A HEART ATTACK.

Mom💖: please don't worry son. I love you, and your litterly the only thing I have. Like litterly the only...

Fav son❤️: Mom... What the fucking fuck happened? TALK OR ELSE I'M COMING HOME AND SKIP CLASS.. I'M MAD MOM.

Mom💖: Son. You will not accept that news good, that's why I want to tell you face to face cause I don't want you to have something in the middle of the class. And now that I'm thinking about it, it was bad idea to text you. I just couldn't wait and couldn't handle my feelings anymore. I felt like the world was getting smaller and smaller and I was in the middle and they would trample me any minute now. You would never understand how I felt and how I was afraid I would die. Son. I wanted to commite suicide, I really wanted but I was afraid for that too. I didn't know what to do. I was trapped on my own feelings.
Don't skip class. Please I'm begging you don't tell anyone that your worried or that something happend not even Marylin, I know it's your best friend and you want to tell her. But this time I think it can wait a bit. That's it. Be calm and come home later. I'm sorry for intorupting and make you worried. I'm really sorry baby. But be sure that no one finds out. Everythings gonna be fine, if we stick together forever. I love you. Bye.

I was so worried. I couldn't wait till the bell rings and I can leave. But-

Fuck.

I have to tell Marylin something at least. I can't lie to her, especially when the topic is my family. I need her to know, she is hypothetically my family, my everything.

Bell rang-

Finally!

I got out of class and went straight towards Marylin's class to tell her that I can't go with her home.
I came outside and see her chatting with some of her friends and go there and tap her shoulder so that she will turn around and i can tell her what I want to tell her.

As I tapped her shoulder she turn around and I tell her :

-um I need to tell you something really really inportant, can we go to the back of the class? It's Kinda personal.

-yeah man, of course.

-okay so.

-Hm?

-I can't go home with you today, I need to leave like in 5 minutes. My mom texted me in the middle of the class and said that something with my dad happend and I'm worrying as fuck about what the hell happend. Man I'm shaking, what if-what if he died??.. Umm here, read the texts and tell me what you think.

(I gave her the phone. She readed quite quick and then she lifted her head with open mouth)

-What the fuck Jake.??

-I know. I don't fucking know what happend, and my mom didn't tell me anything, she was just upset and told me more than 2 times that she love's me and that I'm the only thing she has, and when she said that, that was the moment when I thought :Did he died?!

-Jake. Jake. Jake. Everything is gonna be okay. I know that this hole thing is making you worry about your dad. But please trust me and listen to me. When I say that EVERYTHING is gonna be Fine. Please listen what I'm saying. I meen it. Dead seriously. I love you. So freaking much that I can cry if something happens to you baby. I know that you love me too. I know that. Please call me immediately when you have answers okay?

-Marylin-

-Yeah Jake?

-It's just that..

-um hm?

-I loveyou

-I love you more. Now go and don't forget to call me, don't worry about me oka?

-hhmmm yeahh. Thank you. Bye.

-Bye.

Even after Marylin's words. My head was filled with emotions that I even myself didn't know I have and I could feel that. Woah am i dead? I was feeling pretty bad, I thing I'm pale and I cant feel my face. I need help. I can't go home alone. I feel like i'm gonna fall. Like I'm serious. I can't see clear.

Oh who can I call-

-Jaaakeee. What are you doing on the floor????

-Huh?

-What are you doing on the floor?

-Un I'm not sure, I think I fall cause i was getting dizzy. But im okay now... I think...

-no the heck no. Your not. I'm going with you and there's nothing stopping me.

I didn't believe that I had such a great best friend. She leave school just so that she could be with me. She was worried. She loved me and I loved her. I was so happy with her. I'm thankful.