Life Was Never Good to Me

Chapter 15

--- Lee Sena ---

I could feel the sun hitting my face through the opened window. With that, I knew that the day had come. I moved my face closer to my pillow as I groaned lightly, burying my face on the pillow. I was too lazy to wake up. 

5 minutes passed. I was back to my deep slumber when the alarm rang. I lazily got up, and "argghh.." the pain shot up in my head. My head hurted so bad. My hand spontaneously made my way to it, squeezing it a little, ignoring the fact that my 'PRECIOUS' alarm was still ringing beside me. 

*what did I do last night?* I thought as I turned off the noisy alarm. My eyes landed on my mini calendar located on my desk. Oh yeah..I remembered. Last night was the 'day'. I couldn't help but to feel sad again. My tears wanted to make its way down, but I stopped it. I shouldn't cry, not again. I bit my lower lips as I walked towards the window, as usual..the best thing to reduce my stress. I smelt the scene. It felt strange. I suddenly wanted to vomit. *what happened to me?* I immediately ran as fast as I could to the bathroom.

I wiped my mouth. I cleared my throat as I leaned my back on the wall. My body didn't seem to cooperate well. I felt like jelly that I could slip at any time.

I went back, and I changed into my new uniform. Crap! I scolded myself when I remembered about a bigger problem. My family. They hadn't known about this, yet. Eottoke? I slowly grabbed my bag, and headed outside. 

I saw eomma preparing the breakfast. Appa, and Jonghyun oppa were sitting on the dining table. They were busy chatting. Oppa suddenly smiled, and so did appa. They looked really good together. I sighed deeply.

"Yah Lee Sena!" Someone's voice brought me back to reality. I looked up. It was eomma's. "What are you doing there? Ppali! Come, and help me." She commanded. "E-eo.." I stuttered. I made my way to where she was. "Sena ah, how's school?" Out of a sudden, appa asked me, serving a piece of toast to his mouth. My eyes widened in surprise. What should I answer? "G-great." I forced a smile. "What's wrong with your uniform? It isn't your usual uniform, is it?" Oppa raised an eyebrow. I stopped chopping the carrot. 

I slowly turned around. I left the 'thing' in front of me, and went to where they were. I nervously took something out of my bag. An envelope. I handed it to them. Oppa raised an eyebrow. I looked down. I was nervous, curious about what they were going to react. "Omo..jjinja?" As a fast reactor, oppa was the first to react. I looked up to see his widely opened eyes. "Waeyo?" Not too long later, eomma followed the crowd. She turned speechless. 

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I sighed deeply as I walked towards the bus stop, with a big luggage on my hand. My mind flew back to moments ago. As soon as they found out, eomma and oppa immediately pushed me to my bedroom to pack my belongings, saying that it was such a great chance, and stuffs that I shouldn't leave it passed. The wind flew by, blowing my long wavy hair. With their reaction, I felt like the unwanted one at the family when the fact that, yeah..it was..but still..Jonghyun oppa..he was always kind to me. Why? He should at least show his denial. I was going to leave the house. Wasn't he going to miss me? And appa..he didn't even say a word. *sighed* I was now late, so late indeed. I looked up, and I saw two girls in uniform. 

I guessed they were waiting for the bus as well. "Ommo.," I heard one of them said. Having my human instinct, I curiously turned my head. I spontaneously stepped back. They were looking at me with two pairs of detective eyes. "It's her. Chaerin ah, it's really her." "Bwo? Jjinja? How can she?" Her friend answered in disbelief. She crossed her arms, as she used her eyes to scan the whole me, from my head to toe. I spontaneously used my arms to cover my front, making an 'X'. "Cchh.." the girl rolled her eyes. "Unnie.." she lazily called out. I raised an eyebrow in confusion. "Break up. You don't suit oppa well, arrachi?"

I titled my head to the side. *what is she talking about? Breaking up? With whom? I don't even have a boyfriend.* "yah!!" I was too immersed with my thoughts that I didn't hear them. "Yah!" I immediately brought my palm to my forehead when I felt something hard landed on it. I groaned in pain. They hit me with a book. *bwo? Michyeosseo?* I thought inside my mind. I wanted to scold them, but they had walked away. What a bad morning. The bus arrived. I entered.

*sighed* I brought my phone out. I puckered my lips. 12 missed calls from Chanmi, and 9 from Sooji unnie. *what's wrong? Ahhh..* I suddenly laughed like an idiot. They must have missed me. Cchh..I was about to dial Chanmi's number when someone accidentally pushed my arm and my phone fell. "Y.." I stopped myself from yelling. It was an old halameoni. "C-chaesongaeyo." She sincerely apologized. "A..aniyo halameoni." I stood up. I signaled her to sit at where I was before. She flashed me a warm smile. 

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"It's good to know you Sena ah. Anyway, please tell me if you need something." My new room mate, Kim Nana smiled at me. I smiled too. There's suddenly nothing to talk between us. I looked at her, and she showed me a face, like there was something to ask. "If there are questions, you can ask me." I assured her. She smiled in uneasiness. "Eo..igo.." she pushed me to the nearest chair. She took a seat across me. "How long have you dated oppa?" My smile instantly faded. "Date?" "Yeah..Kai oppa. You guys are dating. Oops..this shouldn't be published, isn't it? But..y.." Break up. You don't suit oppa well, arrachi? The girl's words this morning replayed in my mind. "what boyfriend? Can you please tell me what happened? I really have no idea. I don't even have a thing." I frustratedly spoke out. Nana blinked her eyes repeatedly before she went away to grab a magazine. "Here.." my eyes shot opened. 'EXO'S KAI WAS CAUGHT MAKING LOVE WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND AT A HOTEL' It was the headline. I immediately covered my mouth with my palm to cover my shout. "I..igo..bwo..ya? Wh-when did they get this? H-how?" I murmured slowly in disbelief. I looked up at Nana. "Where's his room?" I raised my voice. "Nu..nugu?" Nana stuttered. 

"This guy.." I tapped on the naked magazine boy. "He..they seldom stay, b-but.." "Eodi?" I cut her off. She immediately told me the location. Without even thanking her, I ran out.

I stopped my track in front of a room. 7080. I looked at the paper,and the door to make sure that it was really his room. I raised my hand and was about to knock on the door when it suddenly opened on its own. A good looking boy appeared, but he's not the one I was looking for. "Oh hyung, she is here." The boy in front of me spoke out. I guessed he was talking to the owner of this room. "Let her in.." I heard someone said through the other side of the door.

I took a deep breath, and entered. I walked straight to him. "Kai, isn't it?" I titled my head a bit as I faked a smile. My next action surprised everyone in the room. If I was not mistaken, there were a lot of boys inside. I slapped him hard on his face. He held it. "Yah..micchyeosseo?" His friend reacted. Kai raised his hand, signaling the members that he could handle it. "Why did you do that to me?" I straightly asked. "You guys were both drunk that night. It isn't purely hyung's mistake." One of those boys commented. "Can you guys stop talking? This is OUR problem." I shouted. A tear slipped down from my eye.

Yeah, I did cry. It was not because I was scared of being laughed, scared that I would be insulted, but it was my parents, my family. How would they think? How would they face those insults out there about me and my family? Eomma must be so angry when she saw this. Appa, and Jonghyun oppa must be so disappointed. 

Kai nodded his head, giving them sign that it was okay to leave us both alone. They went out. I lost my balanced. I slipped down to the floor. I cried, hugging both of my knees and buried my face on them. Kai admitted. He was surprised. Beside Minyoung, no one had ever cried like this in front of him. If it was the fans, it was different. They all cried in happiness. It was really his first, with a stranger. 

Kai bent down to have the same height as mine. He wanted to pull me into a hug. I immediately pushed him away. "Don't touch me." I snapped with my red face full of tears. I stood up. I stepped my foot. Unfortunately, I lost my balance again. Kai immediately caught me before I could fall. "Chokiyo..chokiyo.." that was the last thing I heard before I completely passed out.