(Flashbacks in italics)
" the moment that I met you was the moment that I knew you were the one for me. I promised to love and care for you. I love you "
" Do you JM Viceral take...... "
It's 7am, im on my last list in my daily routine which is wearing my shoes. Grab a piece of bread from the table and of course the lovely bouquet that I've prepared everyday.
Arriving at the University after a 10-minute walk from my house, which is very near guys. I went straight to her locker to put this flowers that I've prepared for her.
" Gonna do everything in order to see that smile everyday.. you can do this. Man up! Wooh! " mumbling to myself as I stood in front of her locker
After putting it went straight to my class and listen to some boring lectures
L U N C H B R E A K
"There she goes man. Dang that flowers she surely love that "
As soon as Ferdie spoke I immediately look to where she was and damn he was right she surely love its
" yep! She is! She loves it " seeing her smiles made my day
Well to tell you guys this is my everyday routine. I left at 7am to put flowers and letters at her locker.
Let me tell you another one or more, She is my friend since middle school and I've been doing this since I don't know forever . I know, patience is the key guys. I love her and I see my future with her.
Not until that cold Thursday morning...
" Ana, can we talk? " I muster up the courage to talk to her in private.
" sure let's go to the park near here "
Walking on the way to the park, I was busy talking in my head about my feelings, her feelings and this situation.
" so what are we gonna talk about JM? " she speak right away as we settled in a bench near the lake
" hmm.. you remember when we're 14 we used to go at horizon's just taste every new cakes they bake. And also when we we're 17, where you were so embarrassed the moment we got out of the cinema cause you discover that you need to let me buy pads cause you have your period on. Or the time that.. "
" JM, what do we really need to talk about? Cause you see I need to be somewhere at the moment. "
" somewhere like you mean yael somewhere Is that what you mean? " I could really see that shock on her face the moment I said those words
" wha..how? "
" You see ana, I've been loving you since what? 14? 15? I lost count but I love you since forever. But you don't see that and you will never evre see that. Because it's always him whom you see not me Ana, not me. I'll tell you honestly that it hurts me seeing the woman whom I love, hugging, kissing and loving another man that is not me. But you see even though I've caught you two countless times, I ignored it and continue loving you... well not until I saw you this morning. I saw you, you were looking at him like he was your everything, we he is. See the way your eyes spark at every words, every jokes he says on you. That moment I came on to realization that I can never be that guy and never will be. That moment I saw you laughing was the moment I realize that it's time for me to let you go. To finally accept that I ca never be your man. That I'll always be just your friend. I want to see you smile everyday to never shed sad tears but just happy tears. And it came to me, that he's the one who can do all that. And this flowers and letter will be the last one you'll be receiving coming from me. "
the whole time that I was talking she was sobbing saying sorry
" im so sorry...im sorry...you caught why didn't you stop right away? Why now? "
" I grew tired Ana, I realized that I am not happy anymore that I just keep on hurting myself. People do gets tired and im on my limit now. I just want to see you happy. Forever gonna love you Ana" kissed her forehead goodbye
" Do you JM Viceral take Ana..........
Padilla to be your wife? "
" I Do "
The moment I heard those two words it crashed me, breaks me.
I realized after a year he left that I love him so much but he was already gone. Tried to find him, it took me 5 years to find him. The moment I saw him, he was already in another woman's hands.I couldn't bring myself to show up. It took me 5 years but seeing him so happy is the moment I promised to never break his heart again.
He lied actually, . . .
That wasn't the last letter I received from him. I've got the last just 1 week before his marriage which is today. He gave me a letter attached with a invitation to his wedding.
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무시 (musi) means ignored
02.22.2020
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