Growth

Living With G

Hi, G.
How are you?
Not good.
What's wrong?
Just dad again.

Oh, G.
I know I remind you of that man some days.
My emotions get the best of me and I seem as unapprochable as him.
It's not your fault.
Do not blame yourself for your anxiety monster.
You have demons from the way you were raised.

Hey!
I could send this at 3:35pm.
I might not get an answer.
It's never been your fault.
When you don't answer I'm worried he may have done something again.

Many times I have held you while you cried after he was in your face,
Ghostly and raging,
Seeing red.
I have always agreed,
He acts too harshly,
Pushing you around as though you do not matter.
Why,
G,
Do you put up with this.

Hello, G.
How are you?
I know you're not well.
I know how much you miss him.
I hope he comes back to you.
It's not your fault,
And it wasn't fair.
Don't blame yourself for what happened to you.
For him leaving you.
You are not at fault,
And I hope someday he comes back.

Dear G,
When will I see you again?
Don't leave yet.
Don't run away.
You'll be safe here,
In our arms.

Dear G,
Feel special when I offer to hug you.
I don't like to be touched,
Even in the best of times.

Dear G,
I hope you and your family,
Near me or not,
Are safe.
It's a scary time right now.
I'm here for you.

Dear G,
When this all blows over we'll be standing in the streets,
Watching the sun rise on a new day,
Bright and early,
Smiling as the war passes.

Dear G,
I'm sorry I'm so reluctant to come over,
I can't risk leaving,
I can't get sick.

Dear G,
We may only be friends,
But I'm glad you feel you can call me your brother in his absence.

Dear G,
Don't forget me when you're a star someday.

Dear G,
Never forget,
I love you.

Love your brother,
P.