My eyes felt so heavy but I forced them to open anyway.
The room was a blur. I felt exhausted yet my body seemed to be relaxed. Those were the effects of my medication. When had I taken my meds?
Someone was holding me. I slowly turned my head to see who it was.
Taehyung smiled relieved. "You're awake." He whispered. Behind him the sun was shining. I looked around. They were all over my room. Jimin was sitting on the floor, leaning against the bed. Yoongi and Hobi were sleeping in each other's arms on my sofa. Seokjin was sitting in the chair next to my bed and Namjoon and Jungkook were sitting one the foot end of the bed. Taehyung's hands slowly let go of me and I felt a bit sad he did.
"What happened?"
"You had a panic attack." I groaned, pieces of last night started to come back to me.
My father. This happened because of him. "We called Tara." Jungkook continued. "We thought she would know what to do." I nodded. "Thank you."
"She told me to do hold you, she said it helps when the medicine isn't yet but you fell asleep and I didn't want to wake you." Taehyung chattered. I sat up a bit straighter. "Thank you."
"You should thank Tara really." Jimin said. "It was lucky I already had her number, your phone broke from the fall." Great, now I would have to buy a new phone.
"Why didn't you tell us?" Namjoon wondered. "I don't think I've ever felt so scared Katie, we didn't know what to do."
"I'm sorry guys, I really am."
"I'm just glad you're okay." Jungkook Yawned. Taehyung took my hand and squeezed it. Yoongi and Hobi were still sound asleep. It made me smile to see them so peaceful, so vulnerably in love.
"Jimin can I use your phone to call Tara?" He nodded. "I already texted her you're awake." He handed his phone. She picked up immediately and I left to the bathroom to have some privacy.
"Katie, are you okay?"
"I'm fine, Tara. Thank you for helping out."
"Anytime sweetheart, but you should've told them about your panic attacks. This was bound to happen. Jimin told me Taehyung was almost hysterical." That made my heart heavy, knowing I caused him that much worry.
"I'm coming to Barcelona by the way." She announced. My eyes widened. "You are?"
"I'm in between projects anyway and Jimin asked me to help him with something." I shrugged. "So he texted you?" I was sure she was blushing. "He did, we text all the time. We've even skyped a couple of times."
"Then I guess I'll see you in Barcelona."
"See you tonight." She said before she hung up the phone. I walked back into my room. Yoongi and Hobi were awake now too. "How are you?" Hobi asked. "I'm okay, thank you for everything guys." They both gave me a shy smile.
I handed Jimin his phone back. "Thanks." He stood up. "Did you know she's coming to Barcelona too?" He nodded and I started walking to the bathroom again to fix my hair. "I'm picking her up from the airport late tonight, she still had some things to take care of today." I stopped and turned around. "So you're picking up my best friend?" I gasped. "Well-I-" He stuttered. I laughed. "I'm messing with you, glad to see you're taking my advice. I'm coming with you of course."
"Of course." He repeated. Nobody asked what happened, why I had a panic attack. They all understood that if I wanted to tell them, I would. And I wanted to, I really did but I needed more time.
I unpacked my toiletries and laid out my laptop on the desk and went over to the balcony I seemed to have again. This time I didn't have a view of the city, but I could see the beach. We weren't in center barcelona but just outside of it. I didn't mind, I loved the beach. Last time I went was with my grandmother. She had been too old and too ill to take me on a vacation far away so we drove just across the border with the Netherlands and rented a small cottage there, just grandma and me.
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We stayed at the beach for two weeks. I loved every second of it, it was the last real time I spent alone with her before she passed.
God I still miss her every day.
A knock on the door pulled me out of my thoughts. "Come in." Taehyung strolled in, carefully closing the door behind him. "Hey, I just wanted to make sure you're okay after last night." I sat down on the sofa behind the bed. "I'm fine, Taehyung thanks."
"Listen." He continued after a silence. I got you something." He handed me the blue giftback he was holding in his hand. I carefully took it. "You didn't have to-" He shushed me and told me to open the bag. In it was a brand new phone. "Taehyung, I can't accept this."
"Katie, please do." He touched my hand lightly to push the gift back in my direction. "I-"
"I left you a playlist of songs I think you would find inspirational for writing and my number is already on your speed dial." My mouth parted, I wanted to say something, anything really but I couldn't make a sound. This was literally the sweetest thing anyone had done for me, ever. I couldn't wait to listen to the playlist.
"Thank you." I eventually managed to say. He smiled again and told me he had some more work to do, so he left pretty quick.
I turned on my new phone and listened to Taehyung's playlist.
After dinner Jimin and I left for the airport. I was excited to see Tara again. I had really missed her, I know it sounds silly I mean, I am a grown-up, I should be able to go a week without seeing my best friend but it was hard. Having my first panic attack without her being there was terrifying and I was just happy I would get to spend some time with her again.
When she noticed me in the crowd she screamed my name and ran to me. Her enthusiasm was infectious and it made my heart glow.
I hugged her so tight I thought we were going to crush each other. "I missed you."
"I missed you too, Katie, home is not the same without you there." I fought some tears and pulled back. "You look gorgeous T, you're radiating." She smiled so bright I could see all of her teeth. She had her sunglasses ready in her gorgeous hair. Where mine was long and copper, hers was ashy and snit short with pretty beach waves. Honestly Tara was one of the most beautiful women I knew. Combined with her charms, she had the power to win over any guy she wanted.
She turned to Jimin who looked like he was in awe. "So we finally meet in real life." She said, was that a flirty tone in her voice? And did she just wink at him? God he even blushed, what was happening here?
"Hi Tara." He squealed. They stood a little awkward for a moment, not knowing whether to hug or shake hands so Jimin just took her bag and told her the car was waiting.
"I love that you're here."
"I'm excited to be here! And excited to meet the others."
"Just please, act normal. They're just people."
"I acted normal around Jimin didn't I?" She lowered her voice so he couldn't here us anymore while he threw Tara's luggage in the trunk. "Well-"
"Oh no it was awkward wasn't it?" I giggled. "A bit."
"It's just that we have been texting everyday and skyping but seeing him in real life now it's different."
We talked the whole car ride, not giving Jimin any chance to speak.
"So how are you feeling babe?"
"I'm okay T."
"Why did you have a panic attack? Your last one was so long ago." I tumbled with my thumbs. "He called Tara, my father." I whispered so Jimin wouldn't hear. She immediately threw her arms around me. "It's going to be okay Katie, he can't get to you here." I sighed, I knew that but what would happen when I went back? What would happen when I went home? He would probably find me there.
I quickly shook away the thought. I should try and think about happy things right now. My best friend being here with me, in one of the most beautiful cities in Europe, for example.
When we got to the hotel, the rest of the guys were waiting in the lobby. They greeted Tara politely, a lot more excited then they did with me but then again she isn't going to be with them twenty-four seven for months, she's a visitor. She shook their hands with the biggest smile on her face. I noticed Seokjin and Namjoon allowed their glances to linger a little bit longer than necessary. I couldn't blame them. She was really pretty.
Jimin helped carry her luggage to my room and left soon after allowing us to catch up for the evening.
"This is a beautiful room, I thought they would stuff you away in some small, dark room or something." I chuckled, I thought they would do that too.
"What's this?" I turned to Tara who was holding a bottle of red wine. I smiled and approached the table. There was a small card on the table next to two glasses.
It's an aged Tempranillo from Toro, it's dry yet sweet.
You're going to love it. Enjoy.
Taehyung.
PS: Don't forget to write your thoughts in our notebook, I already did.
She grabbed the card and put the bottle back on the table again. "Isn't he sweet?" She laughed. "Yes, sweet." I said, lost in my thoughts. "Your notebook?" She raised a brow. "This is it right?" She took our notebook from the table. It was a small blue one. Taehyung had written 'Wine Reviews' and our names on the cover. It looked a bit childish but I loved it.
She browsed through it. "You're very thorough." She mumbled. "Jeez, Katie do you spend every night with him doing this?" She said it sarcastically but my blushing gave me away. "You do!" She exclaimed. "You like him don't you?"
"No!" I said a little too fast. "Hmhm, sure you don't." She sang. "You know he only had eyes for you just now, right?" I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, sure." I taunted. "They were all stunned by your beauty." She shook her head smiling. "Not Taehyung, He was looking at you the entire time, how could you not see that? Are you sure nothing is going on between the two of you?"
"He's just easy to talk to." And yes, maybe I should admit this whole tasting wine thing was an excuse to talk to him but that didn't mean I liked him, did it?
"Yes I'm sure you two talk all night long." I slapped her arm playfully and she giggled. "Well, are we going to open up this bottle or what?"
We ended up just talking and talking for hours.
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Hi to the precious human beings reading this,
I hope you like reading this story. I have been writing stories for years and years and this is the first story I've thrown out there and shared with you guys.
For me there is nothing scarier and more vulnerable than sharing my work with you. I try to make it perfect for you before I put it online but these characters are taking me on a journey I never expected. The story is already different than how I first laid it out.
So I hope you enjoy it because that's really really important to me.
All my love,
KV🌼
