I was right. It kept happening. Austin kept bringing me to the station with him ebery day. He kept standing over me like a hawk, making sure I ate. I didnt like it but I knew it was for the better. He's smart, I have to trust his decisions and judgments.
In the recent days of me constantly being brought to the station I did get closer to officers. Some, not all though. Certain officers kept their distance from me. Other officers treated me like I have been their friends all the time. Duke was definitely happy to see his old friends again.... but.... I started to hate the lack of affection I was getting from Austin.
"Can you watch Duke for me? I need to have a serious conversation with Austin." I said quickly.
"Of course!" Allen said, taking Duke's leash.
I smiled and walked to Austin's office, entering quietly. I shut his office door and made sure to lock it behind me. I pulled his blinds shut which made him look up at me. I smiled and walked over to him slowly. He slid his chair back a little and tilted his head, confused.
"Why did you lock my door and close the blinds?" He asked looking me up and down.
"Because I want something." I sighed.
"What?" He was fully confused.
I walked over to him slowly and pushed his chair out away from his desk more. I smiled and gently sat on his lap before grabbing his belt buckle, pulling it off hard. He grabbed my hands quickly, and pulled them away from his waist.
"What are you doing?!?!" He hissed, quickly glancing at the door.
"I told you I wanted something didn't I?" I smiled.
"Emma you ca-"
I cut him off by gently pressing my lips to his. I didn't try to pull my wrists free from his hands but I gently slid my tongue over his lips. His hands loosened and he let go of my wrists. I smiled into the kiss, gently sliding my hands around his neck. I slowly moved my lips from his and to his neck as a distraction. I started to undo his belt buckle again, moving slowly trying to go undetected.
He pushed me back and held my shoulders tightly. Then he looked at each of his windows quickly. His jaw clenched and he seemed slightly annoyed at my actions. But... I wanted his touch. I was deprived of it and I wanted it.
"Emma, I am at work!!" He whisper hissed.
"Austin stop being a baby!" Annoyanced laced my voice.
"What is wrong with you?!" He asked forcefully.
He grabbed my arms and forced me backwards so I was pressed against his desk. He sat up straighter in his chair and held my arms tightly, almost hurting me. I didn't want to try and pull free though, he did have the ability to intimidate me. Any time and any second.
"Emma. What is wrong?" He asked quickly.
What was wrong? Everything I guess.
"You are not interacting with me. We dont do anything anymore." I said with a shaky voice.
"Emma. If what you seek is love then THIS isnt it. This is lust. You don't need constant sexual interaction for love. What you have for me is lust. You dont love me." He said bluntly.
I felt my heart tighten with pain and I couldn't stop myself. No warning, no facial reaction to give a warning. I slapped him as hard as I could, his head turned from the force. As soon as I did so I felt horrible, and my hand stung as well as turned red. I shook my hand out as tears slid down my cheeks quickly.
"Emma talk to me." Austin let go of my arms and backed up a little.
I didn't want to talk, I wanted to go home. I started walking to his office door and Austin scrambled to get out of his chair. I grabbed the door handle, forgetting I locked it, and tried to open it quickly. Austin grabbed my arm and pulled me back into his chest.
"Let go of me I hate you!" I yelled into his chest.
He held me tightly as I tried to hit him but I was too close to get any power into the strike. I kept trying as more tears left my eyes, he hit a nerve with his words. He triggered a memory and it hurt me, but he didn't let go. He just held onto me until I calmed down and stopped moving completely.
Austin slowly started kneeling down, guiding me to the floor until I was sitting on it. He kneeled next to me, his arms still around me tightly. I kept my face hidden against his chest. I didn't want to face his reaction, I didn't want anyone to see me like this.
"Emma. Please, talk to me." He said slowly and softly.
"I wanna go home." I whispered.
Austin sighed and gently slid his one arm under my legs. He lifted me up and pushed his arm to my back for support. I gently wrapped my arms around his neck to keep my face hidden.
"Okay..... We'll go home."
