The Corona Dairy

Day 21~

Friday, April 3

It is weird wat a virus do with you. What people do with you. Without you wan't you gonna care about people and try to trust. Or maybe more. I don't know what this virus is gonna do with me, with you, with everyone! Maybe after this all we lost all a person who we loved. Maybe we all got a trauma. Maybe we will never know what the future is gonna bring to us. This is mostly were I think about it. And yeh, I am 15 but that doesn't mean that I don't think "serious" or something. I mean, I wanna help people but with this side where I am now, I just can't! That feels so hopeless. 
Yesterday came Chloë to us. She were on the farm to when I came here 2 weeks ago. The time that what we din't know that we couldn't go to school. And she have also some problems home. Like me. We don't talk about it. We laugh and try to forget it. That is maybe the mostly part of the reason why I won't call my family. I don't wanna remember what I did wrong, my mistakes.

Maybe I'm just not ready. I don't think that I am weak I only think that it is hard for me to deal some things. That is a part of me. That is me. Do you know the: 'asparagus syndrome'? That is also a part of me. It is not something really bad or whatever. It is a special name for autismic. It means...:

Asperger's syndrome, often 'shortened' to Asperger's, is one of the forms of autism. If you have Asperger's syndrome, you can speak well and learn well. Your intelligence is normal or even above average. Language development and comprehension are normal, as is self-reliance. You do have problems dealing with others. You often find it difficult to understand what other people think and feel and sometimes you don't understand what someone means. Someone with Asperger syndrome finds building and maintaining friendships difficult. You have limited interests and activities compared to others around you. Asperger is also sometimes referred to as Asperger's syndrome, Asperger's syndrome or Asperger's disorder. It is also occasionally referred to as Asperger's disease. Calling Asperger a disease suggests that it can be cured, but it is not!Characteristics of Asperger's DisorderPeople with Asperger's syndrome have, sometimes to a greater or lesser extent, the following characteristics:Contact with othersSocial interaction and contacts are difficult. They find it difficult to empathize with others. Eye contact can be avoided. Social rules and customs are often not understood or followed. Sometimes they shut themselves off to the outside world.Language and non-verbal communicationWomen and men with Asperger's often seem to have great difficulty in properly interpreting proverbs and sayings (taken literally or misunderstood) as well as facial expressions and then responding appropriately.Hobbies, interests and activitiesThe interest of women and men with Asperger is remarkably limited. This is often limited to only one or two subjects. Sometimes they can keep doing the same thing all the time; can only talk about one specific topic or listen to the same song, the same CD.Sensitivity to sounds, smells and touchesPeople with Asperger don't like to be touched. They irritate odors and sounds in a negative sense.Motor clumsinessPeople with Asperger syndrome can be "clumsy". Walking is a bit wooden, they often drop things or do not grasp it well. This goes beyond the usual accidents that happen to everyone.

It's doens't means that I'm a crazy person or whatever. I just have a extra something. 9/10 people got it from family so it's not something strange. Now, I don't know my family but that doens't care. It's just that you and the people now what I got and yeh it's not that I got all of these things but the most of it. I hope you learned something today xD.