I lost you. The moment I saw you I thought I would have you. I decided to take time for myself. To realize why I got so attached to you so easily to realize why I felt like the world was going to end, the reason why I felt like I needed to have you now or else I can never have you. I get on the public bus can you get off at the first stop. The lake. I go out with multiple people walking behind me. I lead myself to the dark, as the fresh air follows behind me. Are you going to the public restrooms and change into my bathing suit. As I'm running to the dog ready to wash my worries away. Of course... you. I see you there with her girl I don't even know the name of but they automatically hate her. I continue to talk and sit on the end knowing I couldn't get in the risk of you seeing me. A glance at you every once in a while until my glance was returned with a smile. Me, in shock I dive into the water loving the silence of beneath the service. Peaceful. They come out of the water and sit with in the lake line.
Are you following me? I ask pretending not to care. You tell me maybe as I start to blush. Do you argue with me and sit and I ask you about that girl. You tell me something that I didn't want to hear but wasn't surprised too. Your girlfriend. You tell me she laughed and had a class to get to before nightfall. I sit in ignoring you trying to calm myself. You open your mouth looking like you're ready to say something and then close it as you get up and grasp my hand dragging me into the water. I laughed and bite my lip. As fast as my happiness came it left with the thought of her. I tell you I can't do this. I can't be with someone who already belongs to someone else. I get out of the water taking my towel and changing back into my clothes, I turn aroundWatching you staring at me from behind. I couldn't help but smile. I take a deep breath in the city at the campus bus stop, waiting. I watch you go onto the change rooms and come out with your towel and bag. Of course... we had to ride the same bus. I don't know what it is, but her, my girlfriend she doesn't feel like my girlfriend anymore. That's why I came to you. Ignore him and continue listening to his lifeless words. Please Raelynn. I gasp silently. The way he says my name is ever so intriguing. As I begin to talk to him, but this time really talk to him. The bus comes. We get on taking separate seats avoiding being uncomfortable. I guess the only comfortability I would be able to have on that bus was if I were to actually sit with you. Of course I didn't but I wish, just wish that I did.
I am working on future chapters, so stay tuned.
