Autumn's pov
Fucking hell my head hurts so much it's like I got run over by a thousand pound truck. I could barely open up my eyes cause the sun was so bright but once I did I noticed it was noon. I tried to get out of my bed but was held down by someone's arm. I looked over and saw Niall from next door naked. Fuck I wasn't suppose to fuck these guys. I hope none of my secrets came out. I threw his arm off of me and quickly ran to the bathroom to take a shower.
Niall's pov
I jolted awake due to my arm being thrown at me. I looked around and realized I was in Autumn's flat. When I was looking around I saw Autumn running to the restroom and all the memories of last night came back to me. What happened to her siblings and father ? I got up and put my clothes on and walked over to my flat and saw Harry and Meghan sleeping together on the couch and saw Emily and some guy I couldn't tell who he was cause his face was in the floor.
Liam looked up from the newspaper he was reading and looked ferrous at me. " Where'd you go last night?"
"Sorry I took Autumn home and stayed there." Liam started to move his eyebrows and made a face say ' you two hooked up ' I only nodded at his face.
~~~~~ A week later ~~~~~
Autumn's pov
Emily and Meghan and I have been spending a lot of time with the boys. We've been getting to know each other but I didn't tell them too much about my past. Right now we're playing spin the bottle truth or dare. Niall's was spinning the bottle. It landed on me, "Truth or dare?" he asked.
"Hmmm truth."
"What happened to your siblings ?" he asked. I froze and started at them. Memories started to fill my head. Memories of that night.
"T-T-They d-died i-i-in a-a c-car a-cci-d-dent. " I said while crying. Everyone looked sympathetic towards me. I hate when people felt that way towards me it makes me feel pathetic.
"What exactly happened? " Louis asked
"Well it's a really long story but here it goes. It all started on November 17 two years ago.
~~~~~ Flashback to that night ~~~~~
"I'm driving " I screamed. I had just gotten my drivers license and wanted to drive to the restaurant.
"Okay but do you know where your going." Zoe, my sister asked?
"Yeah." I got into the drivers seat while Zoe got in the passenger seat and Zephren, my brother got into the back seat behind Zoe.
We were heading to a restaurant to celebrate my parents 17th anniversary. The day before it had just rained and today it was below freezing so there was ice on the roads. I had just hit the city and was driving just below 35 mph. I had just stopped at a four way stop waiting for the light to turn green.
When it turned green I slowly pushed the gas and as soon as I hit around the middle of the intersection my sister started yelling " Autumn go faster there is a car and it's not stopping ." I was being arrogant and didn't go faster than 25 but I looked out the passenger window and saw a silver car coming straight towards me at around 90 mph. I stepped on the gas but I was to late.
The car hit the passenger side and kept driving. We were still in front of the car and the car rammed us straight into a telephone pole. Then I blacked out for about two minutes.
When I woke up I was still in the car. I unbuckled myself with my left hand but it was in so much pain. I looked at my arm and noticed my one bone was out of place. I really didn't care. I looked around the car and notice how badly injured my siblings were. I heard sirens and calmed down a bit. I took my right hand and put it on my sister's neck to try and find a pulse. I found a light pulse. I started freaking out.
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I caused this. If I had just increased my speed than maybe they would be alright. Just than my door was ripped opened. A paramedic was standing there. I tried to hopped out of the car but fell. The paramedic carried me to the ambulance and they inspected me. I had a broken arm and leg. While they were cleaning my wounds they were getting Zoe and Zephren out. The driver in the other car had died on impact and was drunk. They strolled Zoe and Zephren to the other Ambulances and were screaming at the driver to go to the hospital cause they were in critical condition.
They drove me to the hospital and there I waited. Four hours later and a doctor came out.
"Zoe and Zephren!" I got up and hopped towards him with my crutches.
"What is wrong with them!" I said frantically.
"Well the bad news is that Zephren died a few hours after impact. Zoe is in a deep coma. We aren't sure if she will make it or not. I'm sorry for your loss."
I broke down crying because all of this is my fault. The door of the hospital broke open and I came my mother and father looking worried.
"Omg I'm so happy that you guys are okay." my mother said as she hugged me. If only she knew.
I looked up at her and cried even more. " Zephren didn't make it. Zoe is in a coma and she might not wake up."
My mother than got up and started screaming and crying. Than she looked at me. " You're a disgrace. If you weren't driving none of this would of happened. I would still have three children but now I only have one and one who might not live. You are no longer considered my child. Your a murder!"
My father looked at me with sympathy. I knew that he didn't feel this way towards me. I was always his favorite child. My parents than walked into Zoe's hospital room. I stayed outside the door wanting to go in alone.
After about 30 minutes they came out. I looked at my mother and she had tear stains all over her face. She glared at me as she walked out. My father on the other hand looked depressed . I knew from that point on that my family would never be the same again.
I walked into her room and looked at her. Her body was as pale as the moon. Her skin was all bruised and covered in cuts and gashes from the car. Her blonde hair was a rat's nest. Her clothes were covered in blood. She had a broken arm, leg, collarbone and jaw, all on her right side. She had so many needles in her with fluids attached. Her heart rate was somewhat steady. I stared at her for twenty minutes straight.
I started walking towards her and sat in a chair next to her. I held her pale, tiny hands. I started talking to her.
"Please Zoe wake up you're my last sibling I have left. I need you. I know all of this is my fault. If you were driving none of this would have happened. Our family would still be a whole. Mother hates me and Father I think is going into depression. Please wake up." I was crying even more than I was before.
Just than her heart rate started to decrease slowly. I frantically pushed the button on her bed hopping that a nurse would come. Zoe's heart rate was now decreasing rapidly. " No! Zoe! You have to wake up! Please wake up! Please." By now I was screaming. Just than Zoe's heart rate stopped.
The room went quiet except for the beeping of the heart machine. Everything went in slow motion kind of like what you see in movies. Doctors started rushing in. Nurses were shoving me out. My parents were outside the door watching their daughter die. I started screaming and crying.
Just than everything went back to normal speed. The doctors covered her body up with a white sheet. She was really dead. I than started to cry and throw things around the room, shouting profanities and screaming that it was all my fault. After I thrown everything I dropped to the floor and cried. I was the one who caused this. I had just lost two people in one day all because of me.
~~~~~ At the Funeral ~~~~~
I hadn't eaten in a week. I've probably lost over 10 pounds. All I do is sit in my room staring at my wall. I didn't go to school, I never came out of my room till today. I know I looked horrible but what could I say I haven't slept in a week due to the nightmares of that night. I sat down in the corner of the room watching people cry and show sympathy to my parents. I couldn't cry anymore. I've cried all my tears.
Once everyone sat down the ceremony began. I had to make a speech but I didn't want to. If it wasn't for me they wouldn't have been dead. I tried to tell people that but they kept saying it was their destiny.
"Well hello everyone. My name is Autumn and these people were my siblings. This isn't really a speech but I just had to tell you guys something. It shouldn't have needed this way. " And with that I ran out of that room. I ran home. I couldn't deal with seeing those people who all loved my sibling so much and I just killed them off.
~~~~~ Flash back ends ~~~~~
By the time I was done telling the story I was in tears. I looked around and noticed that everyone else was too.
"I'm so sorry." All the boys said.
"Don't tell me you're sorry because you feel bad for me. I already have to live with this guilt!" I screamed.
"So than what happened to your father and mother after all of this."
All I could say was " That's enough today." And with that I ran to my apartment and went to the bathroom. I took out my secret stash. I rolled up my sleeve and pressed the cold metal to my skin. I made it piece my skin and thought this is for all the pain I put everyone through. this is for Zoe and Zephren. This is for my father and this is for the guilt.
I cleaned off my blades and stashed them away. I cleaned up my arm and was thankful that my tattoos somewhat concealed them.
I headed to bed even though it was only two in the afternoon. I feel asleep with only one thought in my head . All of these things were my fault .
So do you guys feel bad for Autumn?
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I was on the verge of tears while writing this so it's okay if you cry.
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