It's early, my alarm has no reluctance to remind me of that much. I rub my face into my pillow in attempt to wake myself up more. Because though I know I have responsibilities, I also have a relationship with my bed and he doesn't like it when I leave. What can I say, he's jealous.
"Hi baby," I greet as Doong-ie comes to cuddle against me, my hand running along her orange fur. I sit up and decide that maybe I should get up and get ready so that Felix isn't waiting long. I feel accomplished when I'm ready in enough time to greet him as he walks up and today is no different.
Felix is smiling in the way he always does, his blonde hair is covered by a red beret. I grab his hand.
"Good morning," he says and I nod along. I'm not really a morning person but Felix always manages to make me feel a little more lively. I just silently pull him along though.
"I really don't want to go today, I'm so embarrassed still," I admit, I usually don't let Felix know how I really feel. But it seems like if I don't say how I feel, I might explode.
"Minho, I bet no one even cares," he squeezes my hand and I squeeze back.
"You're probably right," I find myself sighing and trying to keep my nerves from flying out of my body. I know I over think, it's just because I really like Chan and I feel like I made an absolute fool out of myself.
"I'll see you before dance, try not to let it get to you," Felix offers me a side smile and a pat on the back. I just nod, then the two of us go in separate directions.
As I'm walking to class I see 3RACHA and all their glory standing besides the lockers, they're all talking together until Han Jisung looks up and gives me a smile and wave. I wave back, then before I know it he's jogging happily towards me.
"Minho," his smile is heart shaped and it has me wondering how people can be so happy this early in the morning.
"Hey Jisung," my voice comes out a little rough and I clear my throat.
"I was thinking, you should sit with us at lunch today."
I look at him, trying not to look weird or disgusted, but I think it comes off that way.
"I don't think that's a a good idea," I laugh it off awkwardly.
"Well, why not."
"Well you know, I'm going to sit with my friends and I appreciate the offer and all but I kinda embarrassed myself in front of yours enough already. I also have a crush on Chan," I notice that I'm rambling too much and Jisung is laughing at me and at this point I'm just panicking. Did I just tell Jisung I liked Chan? What is wrong with me, I must've really done something to piss off the heavens recently. "Ah, I've got to get to class. Let's pretend I didn't say any of that." Jisung just laughs again.
"You're so weird," Jisung looks like he's enjoying my suffering, I don't know if I should feel some type of way about that,"Just sit with us. Anyway, maybe you can make Chan like something a little more than his music." He wiggles his eyebrows, I roll my eyes.
"Go to class you squirrel," I smirk pushing his head so that he stumbles to the side slightly, he just chuckles as we part ways.
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Dance comes around faster than I expected it to and I see Felix waiting in the courtyard. I put my arm over his shoulder.
"How has your day been Lixie," I coo, he blushes and hits my arm off of him.
"Don't talk like that, I hate it," he whines as we begin our walk to dance. Mrs. Oh seemed pleasantly surprised by our early arrival.
"Hey dumbasses," Hyunjin chuckles as he approaches us, his smile meeting his eyes.
"How's the weather up there giraffe," I nod with a sarcastic smile.
"Well, good, considering that I didn't embarrass myself in front of my crush," Hyunjin teases, he looks pretty proud of that one but it really hit hard.
"Too soon," Felix says as he wipes a fake tear from his eye.
"I really hate you both," I sigh as I begin to stretch.
"No but really, everyone was talking about you and Jisung, you guys had a moment," Hyunjin puts his hands over his heart and flutters his eyes overdramatically. He looks really ugly so I scrunch my face up in disgust and cover his face with my hand.
"He was just being a decent human, there was nothing romantic about it," I drop my hand,"He does want me to sit with them today at lunch though. Maybe so I can apologize to Changbin?"
"Well you aren't going to right?" Felix is stretching and looking up at me. I honestly don't know where I stand on this matter.
"I don't know Lix, I kind of want to if he really wants me to."
"Why?" Felix isn't looking directly at me anymore but I still shrug my shoulders.
"Well, I do owe him one."
"That's bull, you just want to go sit by Chan and you know it." Hyunjin speaks up and I punch him in the shoulder.
"I mean yeah but Jisung is really nice. I think you guys might like them."
"We don't need new friends or anything Minho, especially not ones like them. You already have a questionable reputation as it is," Felix says and honestly I'm feeling kind of attacked right now. Like they didn't have to come for me like that.
"Why do you care so much anyway Felix," I chuckle halfheartedly to maybe ease some tension.
"I just care about you, that's all," he shrugs, his voice coming out soft.
"Well, I think I should at least sit with them for today," I wrap my arms around him,"But don't worry I'll never replace you." Hyunjin visibly cringes.
"Ew, get a room," he is waving his arms childishly.
"This is a room," I wink as I pull Felix closer, causing a blush to fill the blondes face. Hyunjin shakes his head.
"Let's just work on our dance before I get sick."
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Outside of dance, we wait for the youngest boys of our small friend group to come. It feels normal to see Jeongin approach Hyunjin happily and Seungmin trudges not too far behind. I look down. I wish I had a boyfriend. Well, I wish I had Bang Chan. I shake my head. Why am I being like this all of a sudden? Felix nudges me and I look up, I thought maybe it was because I zoned out a bit but my eyes are met with Jisung approaching happily.
"Hi Minho," His eyes glow and he beams up at me. His eyes travel to Felix and he reaches out a hand confidently,"Hi Felix, I'm Jisung."
"Oh, hi," Felix says kind of awkwardly,"How do you know my name?"
"You're on the dance team," the shorter blonde shrugs, remaining cheerful."Are you going to sit with us Minho? You can come too Felix."
I go to respond but Felix beats me to it,"Well I think I'll pass. I can't let Seungmin sit with the two lovebirds by himself, that would be torture."
"Ah, I see," Jisung nods, his eyes acknowledging the rest of the group but he doesn't really say anything to them. As I was going to respond I see Chan and Changbin walking towards us and I freeze. This just isn't right, I can't even get a sentence out. Rude. Changbin grabs Jisung's hand and Jisung grins kissing Changbin's shoulder lightly.
