𝙗𝙪𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙙 ; 𝙗𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙡𝙖𝙣 𝙩𝙬𝙞𝙣𝙨 ✔︎

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Ethan's POV

" Do you remember what you did to her Ethan? You raped her."

" Because of you Grayson! You lied to me and told a story and I fucking believed it!"

" You didn't have to treat her like that Ethan, you crossed the line."

" And you didn't even fucking stop me you just let it happen like a fucking dumbass!"

I look at Grayson and his eyes were full of remorse, he knew he should have done something and he didn't causing such pain and grief between the four of us. We all had a part in Alaina's death and we had to accept that, this was something we had to deal with for the rest of our lives. I was so upset that I ran out of the house with Grayson calling my name as I ran down the street to the part that Alaina and I used to be all the time. I sat on the grass and just felt where Alaina used to sit all the time. For some odd reason I already felt her presence there, but I knew I could never see her again, but if she was still alive she would have been suffering because of me. We thought about getting married, having children, and spending our lives together, and I fucked it all up. I feel tears run down my face and I realized I was crying, I have to live with this for the rest of my life, knowing I basically ended someone's life. The fact that I don't know why I did it devastated me. I cried, I cried so hard because I lost the love of my life for one mistake she made. I collected myself and wiped my tears, and started walking back to the house. The park was only a block away and it wasn't far of walk which I hated, I wanted to be out of that house for a minute and I didn't know where to go. I didn't want to go far so I would come back to the house in one piece, but for some strange reason I still felt Alaina's presence her laugh, her smile, everything. It's been less than 24 hours since her passing, it'll probably go away soon or something. I'm on the porch now and the door is locked, everyone is probably sleep so I snuck in through the back window into the kitchen. I walk into the living room and I saw Grayson sleeping on the couch so comfortable like he's not the reason that a girl killed herself, how could be so careless about other people's feelings especially when he's the cause of them. But I'm just as bad as he is, I abused her and tricked her and. I don't even want to think about it anymore, I walked over to the couch across from Grayson and sat there and stared at him, not believing that we came out of the same place. The more I think about it the more I think about grabbing a vase and smashing it over his head, but i just lay down on the couch and just hope for a better day tomorrow.

Rosé's POV
I haven't slept since we came back to the house because the guilt was eating me up. If I wouldn't have left that day she could've been alive, she could have been the hallway sleeping in her bed thinking life could possibly get better. I took my anger out on her for no reason, all she needed was another person to help her because there was no one else by your side. And you'll never get her back Rosè. I was interrupted by my alarm that screamed right in left ear to get the fuck up. I truly truly needed to stay home, but all the work that I've been missing are already in piles and I don't need anymore on top of it. I got up and got some clothes that weren't clean, but they weren't dirty either so I just put them on. I went down stairs to get my shoes and I see Ethan and Grayson on the couch across from each other sleeping peacefully with no distress of what happened this week. I scoffed and walked out the door and walked to school. It usually doesn't take me this long to walk to school, but my body felt heavier, like weak in the knees or something. It just felt like every part of me was hard to move and I struggled walking, but I ended up making it to school perfectly fine. I walked in and it's busy as usual and see my group of friends in the corner like they're planning something or whatever. I walked over and their eyes landed on me as they looked me up and down like I was a stranger walking into the school.

" Oh shit Rosé I didn't know who you were at first, is everything ok?"

" I'm fine things have been rough lately."

" I don't see your friend with you today, is she sick."

" No, she passed away last night."

I see their faces drop as they process how I came to school knowing the closest person to me passed away. I know an average person would've probably stayed home for probably 2 weeks and never plan on coming back, but the work debt that I'm in I don't have time to fail this year especially when Alaina's death is weighing on me.

" You know you can talk to us if you need to Rosé."

" I know."

" You know what take this."

One of them reaches in their bag and pulls out a bag and it had pills in it.

"Is this drugs."

" Well you can call them that but they make you feel really good."
" Trust me you can forget all of your problems."

She hands me the back and I looked at it possibly thinking of what it can do to me. What if I think I'm at home or something and I'm not and I walk off of a bridge or something. But at the same time it makes you feel good, and I couldn't turn down that offer. I reach my hand out and get the bag from her and put it in my bookbag before anyone could see what we were doing. I told them that I have to go to the bathroom real quick to not only just use the bathroom but to see what these pills are about. I looked at the pills in the clear bag and they looked back at me. The pills weren't that big they were medium sized even smaller than that. I was debating on taking them now or waiting to go home to take them. I decided to take them when I got home so I wouldn't act all crazy at school. I shoved the pills back and my bookbag and went to class.
Grayson's POV
I woke up on a hard surface and I realized that I wasn't on the couch anymore, I was on the floor with the hard rug poking my face. I got up and got ready for school.I nudged Ethan to get up and I went up stairs to see if Rosé was woke. I opened her door and she was gone leaving a messy room. She probably already went to school already. I went out to the car to get some spare clothes to wear to school and went back inside to change. I didn't see Ethan on the couch so I suspected that he's getting dressed. I didn't feel like taking a shower and I just changed my clothes and got in the car. Later, Ethan comes out and gets into the car. The whole car ride was silent, there was barely anything to talk about and if I was to say anything it would go back silent and create even more tension. I parked in the school's parking lot and walk through the entrance door. There weren't a lot of people in the hallways like usual. Rosé would usually be at the water fountain or class already so I didn't suspect anything different. Ethan was gone already and I saw this girl that was really attractive. I stare at her and she catches a glance back at me, I walk over to her and start a conversation with her and start talking to her to get her number. I ended up getting it and walking her to class and feeling proud of myself I plan for her to come over tonight.

Rosé's POV
It's after school now and I met up with my friends so I could go over their house today. I needed to take my mind off of things so I asked them could I come over or whatever. We all walked to the car and got inside, we stopped by the gas station to get some snacks before we went to the house. We got back in the car and drove to the house. We went through the back door to get in the house because they don't like when tracks are marked through the house. We sat on the couch with the glass table in front of us which they dropped all their snacks on.

" Girls it's time ", one of my friends said.

They poured their book bags out and all of it was drugs. I was in shock due to the amount of drugs they had. It was stacks on stacks on stack. One of my friends to got this one specific bag with white pills in it.

" Is that the same stuff that I have?"

" No, it's way different than the one you have this one is more powerful and stronger than that."

I thought to myself do so want to try something like that.

" Could it kill me?"

" If you take to many it can kill you but I would worry about it."

This made me think even more about taking it.

" So are you going to take them?"

yes