(Sam)
I knew something was wrong. There's no way you become distant without reason.
Colby and I've been dating for three years, and it was completely perfect and normal until about a month ago. He stopped talking to me as much, and sometimes would come home way too late. He would be distant and not touch me as much.
The roommates noticed, too. I didn't want them to worry so I just said he goes to the gym due to not liking to workout around a lot of people.
Everyone was playing video games, I tried my hardest to stay in my room but Corey and Jake basically forced me out of my room. I wasn't really trying, so I'd continue to die.
"Sam, you died again, bro!" Jake joked. I just smiled weakly, making it seem like I wasn't trying to die.
"Are you good, Sam?" Corey asked me, he and Jake looked at me anticipating an answer.
"Of course." I faked a smile, and a yawn. "I'm tired though, I uh, I'm gonna sleep." I walked up the stairs and into my and Colby's room. Once I got changed and under the covers, I realized how much I missed simply falling asleep in his arms. I miss his arms wrapped around me, kissing my forehead and repeating "I love you's" until we slept.
I've seen the text messages that he failed to hide. He was meeting up with another guy, having sex with him. He was cheating, but I couldn't bring myself to leave him. Even though I knew I could never be with him, and be happy at the same time.
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(Colby)
I was pulling my pants up, and zipping them as I looked at the man I've been with behind Sam's back. "I think we need to end this." I spoke.
He nodded, and looked away before looking at me again. "I expected that, you seemed off tonight."
He sounded sad, and almost disappointed. At the same time, it seemed as if he knew it would happen eventually. We said our good byes, agreeing that we would no longer contact each other.
I drove home, ready to set my full and entire attention to Sam. I loved him more than anything, I just had to breath for a second.
When I arrived at the trap house, I hung my keys up and made my way to my and Sam's room. I was about to walk in to be greeted by Sam's warm and beautiful smiles, but instead I heard him sobbing.
Quickly walking in, and wrapping my arms around him he jumped not realizing I walked in. "Sam, baby, are you okay?" I cooed, running my fingers through his hair.
"W-Why don't you l-love me? I just want you to love me, C-Colby." He sobbed, his body was shaking and it seemed as if he was on the verge of a panic attack.
"I do love you, Sam. I love you more than anything." It wasn't a lie, I did love him more than anyone or anything on this planet.
"If you loved me, why- why did you fuck someone else? Why did you leave me every night!?" I was sure the roommates could hear, knowing they were very much awake. "I've had panic attacks and no one, no one knew how to help and-" He sobbed and took a breath. "I had no one, Colby! NO ONE."
"Sam, please." A few tears trickled down my face. "I love you, I promise I do. I'm sorry, baby please, I'm so sorry. I ended it already, I knew I wanted to make it up to you, I-" He started shaking his head, and I stopped my sentence.
"Get the fuck out." He snapped, I wanted to hold him and tell him out much I loved him.
"No, no Sam. Baby, I love you." I begged and pleaded. Hope was still on my mind, that he would maybe change his thought and talk to me.
"You have no right to call me that, to tell me you love me. I said get the fuck out!" He kept his calm until he told me to leave, then he yelled. I cried, and left the room. My whole body was shaking, I didn't know what to do, I wanted to talk to someone- anyone.
The roommates looked at me disappointed, so I knew I wouldn't be able to talk to them. I thought about any other friends that I could talk to but knew that they would be pissed at me, I couldn't really blame them though.
I walked to the backyard, and let my feet dangle in the cold pool water as I cried alone. I grabbed my phone and called the one person who would always be able to make things better.
"Hello?" They answered.
"Mom..?" I tried not to show I was crying, but I immediately failed.
"Oh, Colby what's wrong? Are you okay?" She asked frantically.
"I messed up mom... I-I needed to talk to someone. I don't know what to do." I continued crying.
"Tell me what happened, Cole. What did you do?"
Then I explained everything, she comforted me and told me what I could and should do. She told me I had to learn from my mistakes, and grow.
There was nothing I wanted more than to take it all back, and be in Sam's arms again.
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(Sam)
It hurts, there's no words that could pinpoint the exact feelings I had. I couldn't breath, my chest was collapsing and I fell into a panic attack.
"Col-" I wanted to yell for him, I didn't want to be around him but for some reason it was the name I called. Though when I tried, I started hyperventilating and couldn't breath.
My hands shook as I grabbed my phone, clicking on Colby's contact to make the call. "Sam?" He asked as soon as he answered.
I tried to do as he usually said and take slow and calm breaths but it didn't work. "Co-Colby?" I managed to get out. "Ca-Can't bre-." I felt tears burn in my eyes.
The phone clicked, and right after I heard the back door open then close harshly. Followed by quick footsteps up the stairs then towards me. When the door opened, Colby rushed to my side and wrapped his arms around me.
"Breath Sam. Take a deep breath with me, okay?" He took a deep breath with me, my breathing didn't slow.
There were more footsteps, then Jake walked in the room. He knew what happened, he's heard me talk about it and I told him not to tell anyone. I didn't want a lot of people thinking badly about Colby, only because he wouldn't be able to handle it.
Jake sat on the other side of me, rubbing my back and told me everything will be okay. I pushed Colby off of me, and looked into his eyes sadly. "You c-can go.." I almost whispered. Jake looked at Colby, as we both waited for a response.
"S-Sam.." He started, eyes watering.
"Leave." I snapped, why didn't I call one of the roommates? Calling Colby was the worst idea I've had. He nodded, and left quietly.
Jake comforted me for what had to have been another hour. "Thank you, Jake.. I appreciate it."
He nodded and smiled. "Of course. No one should have to go through anything alone." With that he kissed my head of hair and held me again.
It was amazing, having someone hold me and make everything feel okay. I haven't gotten this in a while, not since Colby began disappearing to be with someone else.
