you made me
i can still feel his hands on my skin,
the ringing in my ears,
hear my heartbeat pounding against my chest,
and feel the tears threatening
to pool out.
i thought this was how it was supposed to be.
i wonder,
do you even remember that day.
why am i the one left with a hole in her chest.
that's a part of me which i will never get back,
and yet,
i never knew what you were doing,
i was so young,
but i felt so dirty.
you made me feel dirty,
you made me feel guilty,
you made me afraid.
4.24.2020
