Reality Check ✅

2

Love yourself

Did you know that at least about 80% of the society is single?? To you my reader, in a relationship or not... loving and accepting yourself is a priority. How can you love someone when you don't even have that love for yourself? How DARE YOU GIVE AWAY ALL THAT LOVE AND NOT SAVE SOME FOR YOURSELF??!

How do you manage to love others so willingly but hate yourself ?

To lend some time, love, patience, understanding.... a bit of everything for yourself doesn't make you selfish, long as you don't barricade yourself from others by doing so.

You are your own responsibility... you should be your own priority. I'm not telling you here to not give a damn bout other people other than yourself, but just put things into matter and start worrying more for yourself. Listen, it's not always that there'll be people you can depend on, they have their own crap to deal with so stop being too dependent. Being dependent to others gives them THAT obligation... to look out for you, to care for you, to take responsibility of you but it's that same obligation that they could always just run away from easily and you won't even stand a chance (and that's on mainly why I have trust issues). You're not their responsibility and they're not yours either. Begin with yourself first.

Everyday, ask yourself "How are you?" but this time onwards, how about answer a little more honestly. Telling others that you're "fine", "just tired" doesn't really make anything out of it right? You say that to not have anyone worry or for you, they wouldn't understand you and just judge you and think you're overreacting but it's not what others think of, it's you. You're the one making excuses for yourself to make others believe but you know best it's all just a lie. And that, you're really just lying to yourself yknow???

Enough with that smiling when you're not actually happy... enough with that crying when you're not really sad... enough with messing up your feelings. Because eventually, you'll grow used to it and you won't ever get the chance to be truthfully honest and real with yourself. And eventually, you'll grow numb and lose control over your emotions. What's tougher is the truth that when that happens, you'll know how much you've failed yourself and now you've lost that person... you lost you. You're just not the same anymore and you don't have the proper energy to keep going... but it's not over just there, it's never too late!

True happiness is always just there deep within. You might've changed into a person even you yourself couldn't recognize but he/she's still there, the real you never left because it's within you.

P.S. I'm laughing at my excessive usage of the word "you" in this chapter but hey hey that's what all this is about.... you;))

You my dear are a fighter and you are much stronger than you think, you'll get through this and more than survive, you'll win. We each have our own stories to play (some may choose to abide or rebel) and it all leads to a better ending, maybe not the happiest but god has plans. You're going through all of this for a reason, you're being tested of your capability to fight your way through so hang in there bud.

It's all worth something. If you surrender now, you'll never get to see what you might've found at the end of the rainbow after this storm. Good things await you love <3