Today My Life Begins (Bruno Mars Fan Fiction)

Chapter 63

I could hear concern in his voice, "Are you doing okay? How have you been feeling?" I laid back on our bed looking at my kind of flat tummy.

I made circles around my belly button with my index finger feeling the small hard bump that has grown. "I haven't had much morning sickness, just been hungry like every minute of every day." I heard him laugh on the other end. I closed my eyes and visioned him and his bright beautiful wide smile and how his nose wrinkles just a little, it always made me smile from ear to ear, just picturing his smile warms my heart. I miss him badly, it hurts, I want to touch him and I want him to touch me. "How's the tour going?"

He says something to who it sounded like was Kam, "Yeah I'm gonna head with y'all in a second."

"Bruno?" I bit my lower lip.

"Yes baby?"

I didn't want to ask, it only hurts me when I do, but I do anyways, "Do you need to go?"

I became sad because I knew he had to leave sooner than later, his show is suppose to start in two hours and they had to finish getting ready and do sound check. I heard him sigh, "I'm sorry babe. I have to get ready."

I shook my head holding back the lump in my throat, "No it's okay, I know this already... I love you." I felt my eyes watering up, trying not to choke on the lump in my throat.

"I love you too. I'll talk to you later."

The line went dead and I raised my hands to my face as I sobbed into them, making it harder for me to breathe. I can't stand being alone, I can't do this, I have to get out, not being able to be around him is literally draining me. I can't think about how far away he is right now, it only makes my heart hurt, like pressure sits on my chest. I gathered myself to take a shower to lift my spirits. I dress in my dark blue skinny jeans, navy blue tank top with tiny white polka dots and a white short sleeve bat wing shirt on top of my tank. I look in the mirror as I finished curling my last big curl in my hair. I noticed my eyes were still red, still raw from crying so much and crying in the shower, thinking of him, how he is so close to coming home but is so far away. Taking a shower only made me think of him even more. I don't feel safe without him, I haven't been getting much sleep as much as my body begs for it, I can only picture blackness going in and out with Calvin standing over my body. I want to tell myself those are nightmares, but what really haunts me is that the in and out blackness is a memory that follows me and will follow me forever. I step out of the house and climb into a pitch black escalade with Chandler in the driver side, "Good morning Marceline." Chandler smiles at me as he looks at me through his rear view mirror.

"Good Morning Chandler." I put on a smile that uses up whatever energy I have left.

"Back home to Xavier and Holly or is there somewhere you'd like me to take you to?"

I looked out the tinted windows to the early morning sky, "I'd like to make a stop before heading back home."

It's been a couple of weeks since I talked to Amber and every time I see Marceline on video chat or even hear her beautiful voice, there is a twist that happens at the pit of my stomach because of ungrateful woman. "You are a bitch you know that?" Her small laugh behind her lips just made me even more mad, "You're lying to me! Simple as that! Who the fuck are you with cause I know you're doing this to start something between me and Marceline."

I know she wants to keep me for herself and seeing me with Marci, how I hold her, smile at her, kiss her, talk to her, it pisses Amber off to no end. She knew exactly what she was doing when she seen me at the studio, but I didn't finish inside her, there is no way that is my child. "Bruno it is your child and there is no one." She sound so uncertain. She always sounds like she's asking a question when she's lying.