reece's pov
i walk out of the bathroom and into the closet, i change into grey sweatpants and a black fitted t-shirt
i walk down stairs into the kitchen and grab my macbook, apple and some water before walking into the living room
"reece, ry lazer has been trying to interfere with our shipments" mason says walking into the room and sitting next to me
he turns his macbook towards me and shows me the security cameras down at the docks
"sort it out, i don't have time for this shit" i say running my hand through my damp dark brown hair
i grab my laptop and walk back upstairs. i enter jordi's and my room. the showers still running
that's weird, i've been down stairs for like an hour. i knock on the door
"jordi? you ok?" no rely
i slowly open the door onto the bathroom and i don't see jordi
"jordi?!" i say panicking slightly
i open the shower door to see jordi still dressed sitting on the floor
an empty pill container laying next to her, a blade laying in her hand and her wrist covered in blood
"jordi!" i yell rubbing towards her, i lay her body onto mine and pick up the container
sleeping pills
pulling my wet iphone out of my sweatpants pocket i ring dakar
"dakar, i need a doctor in my room immediately!" i say still holding jordi's body and putting pressure on her wrist
"right away! what's going on? are you ok?" he asks
"i'm fine, but jordi isn't! just get me a fucking doctor dakar! i scream into the phone and hang up
"jordi, hang in there for me princess. stay with me. c'mon. listen to my voice jordi" i say checking her pulse
she's unconscious
"reece! where are you?" i hear dakar ask
"in the bathroom!" i yell back
i hear footsteps and a gasp
"jordi" i hear a small voice say. i turn away from jordi to see noah standing there
the doctor walks into the shower and turns the water off
"we need to get her into a better place, somewhere that's not wet and slippery" the doctor states
i pick jordi's body up bridal style and walk out of the shower, my wet clothes sticking to her small body
"let's take her to the medical wing. how long was she there for?" the doctor speaks
"i honestly have no clue, i walked in and she was just laying there. i then rang dakar and now we're here" i say, making sure i don't drop her
i walk down the stairs onto the first floor and all the way to the medical wing
the doctor opens the door for me and i walk into the room, placing jordi's fragile body onto the hospital bed for the second time this week
"i'm sorry reece, but your going to have to leave the room" dr miles says pushing me out of the room and shutting the doors in my face
i go across the hall and sit down in one of the seats that's outside of the room, basically a waiting room
i place my elbows on my knees and out my head in my hands
it's all my fault. if i didn't leave her alone she wouldn't be here fighting for her life
i sit up acting like nothing's happened, acting how a mafia leader should act
strong, fearless, unlovable and emotionless
"reece" i hear noah's soft voice say
"noah" i greet back
"what happened?" she asks sitting next to me
"suicide attempt i guess" i say staring straight ahead, keeping my voice emotionless
suddenly she slaps me over the back of my head
"what the fuck noah?" i yell getting up out of my seat
"stop pretending you don't care about her! cause i know you do! i heard the fucking panic in your voice when you rang dakar! you held her, you didn't even bother to to turn the water off!" noah screamed also standing up
"go suck a dick reece, honestly" she mumbles before walking away
i roll my eyes and walk the other way and into my office
i shut the door and walk around my desk
"ahhh!" i scream as i push everything off of my desk and into the floor
i sit back into my office chair and think about it
what is she doing to me?
i can't have feelings, especially when it comes to her or anyone for that matter
yes, many mafia men do have wife's or girlfriends. but that's what makes them weak. i'm the biggest and best mafia in the whole of england for a reason
love is for the weak, and the weak fall in love
that's what i was brought up to believe. yes my mum and dad where in love, but i was told not to have feelings, they would ruin me
jordi's pov
i open my eyes slowly only to get blinded by a something bright and white
i shut my eyes again trying to not blind myself
i groan and look down at my waist
it's covered in white bedding. reeces bedroom doesn't have white covers, only sheet. is this what heaven feels like?
it must be, cause doesn't heaven have all white and hell has like dark reds and blacks or something?
well at least my wish of not wanting to be here worked
suddenly a beeping noise goes off. i cover my ears due to it being so fricken loud
someone smashes the door open and looks at me
"your up mrs summers" he says
"who are you?" i ask him
"i'm doctor lee, i'm the personal doctor for the carter family" he says walking closer to me and looking down at his clipboard
"oh, i thought i was dead" i say emotionlessly
"no mrs summers, your not. you are alive but barley. may i ask about your suicide attempt and why you did it?" he says standing beside my bed
"past experiences i guess" i mumble back
"care to elaborate?"
"i was abused by my so called father for 11 years. he'd beat me in anyway possible. carve words into me, hit me, punch me, break my bones, tell me i'm not good enough, that i should die, i'm worthless and all that jazz" i say looking up at the roof
"is there anything more to it?" he says raising an eyebrow at me
"yeah, i was raped on many occasions" i say
SMASH
dr high and i look over at the door to see noah standing there, glasses smashed on the floor and her mouth wide
"you were raped and sexually assaulted?" she says in a small voice, tears briming in her eyes
"yes" i say back
"i need to tell reece" she says and rushes out the door
[AUTHORS NOTE]
hi guys, new chapter. i couldn't really write cause my phone was backing up and it took like all day and all night so i scrambled to write this, but here we arealso, i have started to draft a new book! exciting! i'm not going to tell you what it's called, but it won't be published until later in 2020. i'm not going to make the same mistake i did with this book where i publish the first chapter as soon as it's written because it took me like months to get a second chapter out. so i'm going to write a lot of chapters or the whole thing and then publish it, i think. i will tell you guys and put the date it will be out in this book so keep and eye out for that!
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