Chasing My Sanity

Kabanata 11

Kabanata 11

Mabilis na lumipas ang mga araw hanggang sa hindi ko na namalayan ang pagdating ng biyernes. Maaga akong nagpunta sa school sakay ng aking bisikleta. I decided to used it more often, kasi alam kong mas mapapadali nito ang aking pagpunta sa eskwela. Unti-unti naring nawawala ang hindi kumportableng pakiramdam na naidudulot ng maiksing school uniform sa akin, sa tuwing nakasakay sa bisikleta. Dahil unti-unti ko na itong nakasanayan. I was thankful, when I reached the school safely. There were only few students na kasabay kong naglalakad papasok sa malawak naming paaralan. Maybe because it's still very early.

Dinadama ko ang malamig na dampi ng hangin sa aking balat, nang mapagdesisyonan kong huwag na munang dumiretso sa classroom. I searched for a place where I could stay, just for a little while. I found a long bench at the side of the quadrangle, na madalas upuan ng mga audience sa tuwing may naglalaro sa gitna ng field. I sat quietly and then closed my eyes to feel more the refreshing breeze of the air. I just love tranquility so much. That's the first thing that I've always wanted to keep, as I first entered this school. I really wanted to be just a nobody, so that my whole stay in this school would be peaceful. But everything has changed when I realized how rampant bullying was, in this prestigious school.

Those student's who were much bigger and much powerful, were belittling and harassing those who were just under them. They weren't scared of what might happened to them or even to those students that they have been bullied. Because, they believed that their parents would do something to help them, clean their names. I won't say that my primary school didn't have bullies, because there were also some. Even I, once became their prey or should I say victim when I was in elementary. That was the reason, why I ran for a position in the student council of this school. I believed that I could help more those students who were being bullied, if I got the position. I was strongly against to any form of bullying, that's why I strongly affirmed that to my partylist and we made it as one of our platform.

Napangiti ako ng lumitaw sa aking alaala ang kagandahang dulot ng aming pagkapanalo noon. Bumaba ang kaso ng bullying na naitala sa aming paaralan. Mayroon pa ring iilan, na nakakalusot at nakakapambully. But at least, hindi na ganoon kadami. I was so happy back then, lalo na dahil may natutulungan akong mga estudyante. Kaso lang ay totoo nga siguro ang kasabihan na may hangganan ang lahat. Dahil parang unti-unti nang nag-iba ang ihip ng hangin sa ngayon. Nagsisimula na naman ang paglaganap ng bullying sa aming paaralan. Maging ako man ay naging biktima din nito noong mga nakaraang araw at siguro magpahanggang ngayon. Napangiwi ako ng maalala ko ang nangyari.

"Look at the two-faced bitch! Ang bait-bait at hinhin sa harap ng madla, pero kung nakatago na ay mas malala pa pala sa isang asong walang breed kung makapanglandi!" galit at parang nandidiring wika ng isa sa mga elite na estudyante. Her face looks familiar, but I didn't know her name. Actually, silang apat ay sa mukha ko lang nakikilala ngunit hindi sa pangalan. Nagpatuloy lang ako sa paglalakad at hindi na sila gaanong pinansin.

"What the hell?! The bitch is such a snob! Ganyan na ba ngayon ang mabubuting student leader?!" sigaw pa ng isang kasama nila. Napapikit nalang ako sa inis at labag sa loob na nilingon sila.

"What do you want?" medyo iritado kong tanong. Mahirap man pero kailangan ay hindi ako magpadala sa aking nararamdaman. Gusto ko man silang gantihan ng masasakit na salita, ay hindi naman iyon maari.

"Lahat nalang ba ng mga gwapong nilalang dito sa school ay gusto mong akitin?!" napasinghap ako sa inis dahil sa narinig. My head tilted a bit. I laughed at them without any humor.

"I don't know what you're talking about, can you please leave me alone?" I gritted my teeth. I really didn't understand them. Lahat nalang ba ng bagay na gagawin ko kasama ang mga kaibigan ko ay bibigyan nila ng malisya. Really huh? I shook my head because of disbelief and annoyance.