Small Town Girl In Control

Flying home

Italy was great! I loved every second of it. Now I'm engaged to Ricardo, and I could not be happier. I am the luckiest girl in the world. It's been a short time, but when you know, ya know. I really don't know what I'd do without him proposing. It's been a short two weeks, but it was so amazing! I can't wait to get back to the city. I haven't even told my mama about the engagement. In fact, I haven't told her about Ricardo at all. I only talk to her about once a month or every other month, but that has been a thing since college. When I was living at home, tension was so bad and our relationship has been better than ever now that I'm out of the house.
I'm a little scared about telling her, cos she can be a little critical. I usually hate telling her about things like this but that's because I am so private with it. I don't think it matters about these things. It's not gonna change me at all. And I love him and I don't care what others think.
"Have you told your family about our engagement?," Ricardo asked.
"I am scared. My mama will be a little furious with me, I'm sure. I don't know if I should tell her in person or over the phone. I don't want to fly to Tennessee but I guess that I'll tell her about us soon. Your family seems to love me already. They were so great to me the whole trip," I said with so much emotion in my eyes. It was so sweet that they welcomed me with such open arms. I haven't had many people do that to me. My whole town hates me cos I was a porn star in school to pay for my tuition and loans. It was a dark time in my life, and I don't know why those people think I still do porn. I don't anymore, but once it's on the internet, it's there forever no matter if you delete it or not.
"Why would she be furious? She doesn't come across that way. At least not what you have told me," Ricardo said. He doesn't know my mother. She is sweet as pie but also brutal and very close minded. She's from the south so it's kind of expected. My mom doesn't like that I have had sex online in front of a camera, but we are all each other has at the moment. I can't have her walk away from me. That's what I am afraid of. So many people have walked out of my life and I don't want the only family I have to leave me over something that isn't a big deal.
"She may be the only family that I have, but I am just scared she will walk out on me. She is the only family I have left. She has helped me through what she could. She has a ride or die mindset most of the time," I said.
"What is so bad about that?", Ricardo asked. I sighed. My mom has such a tendency to guilt trip and never let me live things down. There was one time when I was a kid that I asked her if I could ride my bike down the stairs and she said no. But my twin sister and I got our bikes and rode them down the stairs. She never let the two of us live it down. Since I was the oldest twin, she was pretty mad and grounded me for over a month.
"You'll see," I replied.
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The plane landed and we went to baggage claim to get our suitcases. It was a long flight and it felt like an eternity. Not only were we jet lagged, but we also had a hard time with the airline company to even get a flight. It's hard to get through to people sometimes.
They were only doing their job, but our flight was severely delayed due to something I can't remember. Luckily, it was better after that fiasco. Once we got to baggage claim. We found out that Ricardo's suitcase was not there yet. That's peculiar because we didn't lose our luggage the last flight. It's hard to even fathom where his went. So we searched for a while whilst watching all the luggage go through the carousel. We found it a few minutes later, but it was a close call.
"That was so close," Ricardo said.
"What a relief. So glad that didn't happen," I said. We ran out of things to say and then walked in peace. It was alright since we were in our own little world. Airports are very loud and crowded and not somewhere I like to frequent. However, it was a little bit different at JFK airport. It's probably because there was a person trying to smuggle drugs and got caught. From what I hear, it was something cool to see. I wish we would have seen it. Anyways, Ricky and I are almost to our taxi, and I couldn't be more relieved than I am now. We got in the taxi and got to our place. It felt so nice to have a nice and clean place to be in. I can finally sleep in my own bed. I know it's gonna feel good waking up tomorrow.
"How jet lagged are you on a scale of one to ten?," I asked.
"Pretty jet lagged, babes. Should we call it a day and go to sleep?," Ricardo replied.
"Yes. Let's go to sleep. I'm so exhausted, I said.