Eventually

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"Find your way out of my life."

"You said the same thing when I dyed my hair gray Lisa," Marge said.

"Actually, everything a woman does is empowering," Lisa answered and I felt a beep in my sweats.

Mi Amor🖤
Uhm, hi

Yea right, like we know each other. You've been ignoring me to death for the past month and now you just text like nothing ever happened you shit hole. I didn't even know that I was angry until I saw the text.

Maybe he has texted to finalise what has been happening about a month. We are over and I honestly do not know if I want to take him back.

What is a relationship with no trust?! I mean, does he really expect me to be cheating with his best friend?!

I thought about not replying that text but then again, I really want to have this over with. Just one talk that is possibly our last.

Why are you texting me?!i

Can we talk?! Please.

Why?

Please

Okay, fine

Thank you so much. I'll be there in a few.

I wanted to go back to my show but I knew it would be useless to start a new one when I'm up for a much needed talk. I texted Haney about it and promised to tell him where this goes. In literally no time I heard a knock and it was obviously him. I put my phone away, turned off the TV and went to get the door.

The whole environment was awkward. He kept folding and unfolding his hands -he is nervous- yet I honestly had no time for this bullshit. I even removed the anklet so that he would not catch onto any ideas of me missing 'us'.

"Hi," he gave he a tight smile and I just gestured for him to come in. I can't even imagine the death glares I was shooting him so its understandable if he is afraid or something.

We moved to the living room and sat across each other. "Why are you here?" I asked doing my best to compose myself.

"I want to talk," he looked up at me and exhaled deeply, "about us."

"Oh, so you are finally here to break up with me for being friends with your childhood best friend you asshole." I spat out.

I looked at his head that was bent down. Lowering my gaze to his chest, I saw the necklace I gave him, "why are you still wearing the necklace I gave you. Aren't we over? What do you want from me? Are you here to drive me back into the past? The me that honestly thought that we'd last forever. The me that thought that I was a Juliet who had found her forever Romeo." I stopped and looked back at those days. I was a fool and I'd smack that girl hard in the face if I saw her, "Well not anymore mister, not going to happen because she is long gone. Out there having so much fun with your best friend because you failed to fucking trust her even when she put more than all her effort to make things work."

"I know, I deserve all the hate because-"

"Of course you do, you useless swine. Son of a bitch," I was aggravated, "you think I'm going to be here and pity you. I have no kind words for you and I'd appreciate it if you left and never appeared in my life again. And yes, we are over. There is no more 'us'. I honestly don't care. You can go out there and tell the whole world that you broke up with me 'cause technically, you did. Just don't ever come near me."

"Please Kaela, give me at least a minute." This mf is really messing with me.

"A whole month of no calls, no texts. Just pathetic glances at me and you expect me to receive you with open arms. To be here and listen to whatever bs you have to say. Think again sir 'cause that's not going to happen you shit hole."

"Please, please. I beg you." This man wasn't going to give up no matter how I say it.

"One minute, fix your bs in there and find your way out of my life." I crossed my arms on my chest.

"I want to say that I'm sorry for whatever I said. I should have trusted you from the beginning and known that you'd never do a thing like that because of your kind heart. I was blinded by the jealousy and the demons that were corrupting my mind. I know that doesn't justify my actions one bit but I've learned that you are much better than that. I'm also nothing without you and I'd honestly love to fix this. Your joy is mine and as much I'd want you to be mine, the smile on your face means much more to me. I'm begging you to forgive me and take me back, even just an acquaintance will do for as long as you are happy. I pray you find it in your heart to forgive me, I love you." He concluded and got up to leave.

I just sat there, replaying his 'speech' in my mind and all the feelings flooded my heart. I'd be able to forgive him but that'd take time since the damage was already done. I didn't know if I'd recover 'cause I'm one of those people that can fail to forgive someone even if they really want to.

I am just so confused right now. Like I really want to cry. To cry my lungs and eyes out because I didn't even know any better to do. It feels like I still love him so much yet I don't. I hadn't sat down to think about this clearly so I honestly had no clear thought or feeling. This should be one of the times people just go for alcohol or drugs 'cause I honestly want to forget what is around me even for a minute.

I settled to watch a movie, no phone, no nothing. Ill talk to Haney about this later on. Kiss and Cry is a movie I trust. It'll literally such the tears out of me because I can relate with it on so many levels. My mom will be home late so I'll just sleep after the movie.

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