Random One-Shots

The 3 times I fell in love with you

Ships: Stucky

Words: 1726

Warning: angst
After endgame

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3rd person POV.

It's said that their is what the people of this universe call an Invisible Thread. An ancient proverb that's said to connect two fatted people, who were destined to meet and influence each other to not only become better for others around them but for them selfs, regardless of the time place or circumstance. Your string may stretch and be tangled with others, but it will never break.
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Buckys p.o.v

Dear Jerk,
if your getting this then that means I've reached the end of my line. I know your going to do just fine without me, and I know that this is my last chance to tell you anything that I was to much of a coward to say. So here it goes, I love you.  I wish I could have spent the time I spent with Peggy, with you. But I know that that's impossible now, when I came back I made it became impossible. If you were to look through my old sketch books it's all sketches of you in the 40s when we lived in our apartment, before getting drafted, before I became who I was- who I am. Even when I was around you and sketching it was always you, you were my inspiration and when I thought you were dead I couldn't find any inspiration to draw. I remember a night when you stumbled into the apartment drunk off your ass, but you still had a bottle in you hand, you came into the apartment and almost instantly fell on your face but I helped you to the couch before you actually fell, now this was a challenge because I was ordinary scrawny me, but I had succeeded anyways. When I got you on the couch I took the bottle of Bourbon from you and put it away, and when I got back I had a glass of water and something small to eat for you but as I was setting them down you pulled me into your arms. I remember you saying small little things of comfort even though you were the one that was drunk, you told me it was going to be ok and that one day we'd be doing more than we could then, and not have to worry about how much we have to eat or if we had enough money. I remember it because that was one of the first thoughts I thought of when I first stepped into starks tower. I knew I wouldn't have to worry about food or money because Stark took care of all of that or Pepper  did anyways. That night we laid on the clutch for hours, but before you fell asleep you kissed me. you made my face go red as a tomato and it didn't help that I was still in your arms unable to leave, but the thing is I didn't wanna leave your arms because that was the first time I fell in love with you. Little did I know is that night you had found out your were going to be drafted into war, you were just trying to protect me,  you never wanted to leave and the more I look back on that night I could tell that you were scared about leaving, not sure what was going to happen.

The second time I fell in love with you was when I found you strapped to that table nearly unconscious. I remember you had whispered my name so quietly but said it loud enough for me to hear. Walking back to the camp with you made me fell almost invincible, but you nearly dragging your feet on the ground the whole time we stood walking reminded me that I was no better with a bullet in my shoulder and a gash on my forehead. That night when you were still recovering you scowled me saying I shouldn't have made my way into the army in the first place saying you were trying to protect me not get me killed. And as you punked me I smiled. I smiled because I hadn't seen you in months, you were once again telling me that I should take more care of myself, and the fact I knew that you cared. You were the one recovering because you were hurt, but still trying to protect me. Before the pain you were in consumed you, you pulled me towards you in a quick motion, making me look in your eyes at the time, I don't know if you you remember it I had made no effort to move, or to tell you to let go and go to sleep. That would have been the second time we would have kissed but Peggy walked in and you let go as I stood straight up startled. I was quietly mad at her for walking in but then I remembered that if we did kiss again that the law would have been broken for at least 5 seconds. It's funny now that I look back at it because when Peggy left I heard you mutter under your breath "cock blocker" before you fell asleep. I sat back down and ran my hand through your hair, trying to get what tangles were in your hair out, trying to spike it up and make it look like how it did before you left for Europe. I had felt you lean into my touch, and watched you relax more. Hearing you take a deep breath and holding it for a few seconds before you let it go, almost as if you knew I wasn't going anywhere.

My third time I fell for you was when you stood in front of me for the first time in 70+ years. Your eyes looked cold, your hair was long, you had black makeup on and you weren't you, but the longer I starred into your eyes the more I could see you've been through hell and you needed me to help you take the last few hundred yards out, because deep down I knew you were still their, my Bucky, my jerk. I always knew we wouldn't end up together but that didn't mean I wasn't happy just to have to you be their as my best friend. If you are wondering, yes, I still love you and I always will. You did everything in your power to keep me safe,  and I did everything in my power to make sure you never left my side, because I didn't know, still don't know if I would have made it to see who I was without you.

I hate that I have to leave you, but sometimes we don't get what we want, I had to learn that the hard way. But just know, I'm waiting for you on the other side, ready to walk eternity with you by my side. But for now I rest with my mother, your mother and father, your sister, Peggy,and our Conrads, waiting for you.

Remember I do love you forever and always. till the end of eternity. Till the end of the line. I love you. Even if you don't love me back.

Take care of things for me will you? Make sure Sam doesn't get himself killed, and that you do everything that we always wanted to do. Like see all the original 15 states, live without worry of food or money, not going to war and coming back hurt. I love you, and when I see you again I hope you are still willing to walk eternity with me.

                                             Love,
                           Your Punk, Stevie.

(Still buckys p.o.v)

I reread the letter Steve left me by his grave, tears streaming down my face. Having only a few thoughts running through me head, the nights Steve remembered I remembered to, in full detail, I remember waiting for Steve to return from where he took the bottle, I remember his hand running through my hair exactly 5 times before I fell asleep, and I remember almost dropping everything and hugging Steve even when I didn't remember him. I remember our first and only kiss and how I felt.  Before Steve passed I wanted to tell him but I was called out to talk to fury about my next mission. I didn't go because it took my last few minutes with Steve before they had to pull the plug. He didn't get to know I felt the same, but he said he was waiting and I didnt wanna keep him waiting any longer, having it been a few years since he died. I looked up at the stars and smiled, Steve always liked the stars, more tears streamed down my face as I looked at the tomb stone I was leaning against. I brushed off the leaves on and around it, then kissed the tomb stone, hoping something gets through to Steve. As I walked through the door to the place me and Sam shared I found that Sam and T'challa were on the couch watching a movie. And I had successfully snuck to my room, tears still on my face. As I changed and laid down I felt that someone was in my room, so before I fully relaxed I did a clean sweep throughout my room finding no one so I laid down and put Steve's letter under my pillow, next to a gun just in case. As I laid in my back I closed my eyes, relaxing as I felt a hand run through my hair, I opened my eyes to not find anyone, and the combing stop only to start again as I closed my eyes.
I counted to 5 hair combs as I fell into a peaceful sleep, but before I drifted off I heard

"Get some sleep buck, it's ok to take a break sometimes. Your doing such a great job, keep it up. I love you jerk." Non other Than Steve said I smiled and relaxed fully And whispered

"I love you too punk" only to get back

"I know, now get some sleep, I'm not going anywhere." And with that he kept his hand moving through my hair as I fell asleep knowing Steve was waiting for me and he knew I loved him back.

             Tᕼᗴ ᗴᑎᗪ.