Addicted (5SOS)

*five*

Chapter Five

Lissa's POV

I wake up the next morning to a banging on my door.  I get out of bed and Luke rolls over but doesn't get up.  I walk to the door with an oversized t-shirt on.  Looking through the peephole I see Ashton.

"Lissa?  Lissa you up?"  I open the door and look at Ash.

"Yeah what's up?"

"Have you seen Luke?  We have a meeting down at Sydney Records before our performance tomorrow and we need to be there in 20 minutes."

"Yeah he's actually...."  Shit.  I can't tell him he's here.  "Actually he stopped by last night but left so I haven't seen him."  

"Well if you do give me a call." 

"Will do."  I shut the door and sprint into my bedroom.  I race in and am pinned against the wall by a familiar body.  

"Morning beautiful."  Luke presses his lips to my cheek.  

"Luke you have a meeting in 20 minutes at Sydney Records get your ass out and go.  Also just because we slept together doesn't mean we're dating."

"What the hell are you talking about?  I thought you wanted me?  Lissa that's just fucking awful!  You led me on!"  

"Well I'm sorry if I did.  I'm not a relationship kinda person.  Like I said when you first met me I have friends with benefits not boyfriends.  Sorry."  Luke takes his rage and punches a hole in my bedroom wall.  "Luke what the hell!  I have to pay for that."  

"Well now you know what it's like to have something of your's be broken."  Luke storms out of my apartment and I hear him go into his.  He couldn't possibly be talking about a broken heart.  We slept together once.  Also I'm pretty sure he's aware of my little problem.  I hear Luke go into the elevator.  I need to get food so I might as well go into the city.  I throw on a hoodie and some shorts.  I drive to the grocery store and grab only what I need.  I'm running low on money until I get paid for working at SR (Sydney Records).  I grab milk, eggs, bread, cereal, yogurt, chips, and gum.  

"$28.76."  The cashier rings up.  I hand her $40 and I receive my $11.24 in change.  I load my car and then drive back to the apartments.  I grab my three bags and go into my apartments.  I put the groceries away and decide that I don't want to sit around the house all day.  I change out of my hoodie and into a black tank top.  I take the elevator down and then walk outside.  I begin to walk towards the harbor.  

"Going somewhere?"  I turn around and Jacob is standing there.

"I was about to go to the harbor.  What are you doing here?"  I am extremely confused as to why he is standing outside my apartment building.  

"Oh this girl I'm seeing lives in those apartments."  He points to a set of apartments next to mine.

"Ah ok I see.  Well I'm gonna go."  I begin to walk down the road and then down a dirt path that leads to the harbor.  I path runs through some trees and a few houses.  I walk for about five minutes and then see the harbor.  I walk out of the dense tree cover and onto the sandy beach.  There were no beaches in Wyoming so I love coming to the beach when I'm sober enough to actually appreciate it.  I sit on a bench on the beach and just stare blankly at the open water.  Sydney is such a beautiful city it makes Wyoming look like a shithole.  It's days like this when I'm sober and can think clearly that I regret ever becoming an addict.  I wanna get better. I honestly do.  I can't afford any fancy rehab place and I've always hated AA meetings.  I get up after staring at the sailboats and yachts go by and head up to my apartment.  I open my fridge and grab all my beer bottles out and set them on the counter.  24 of them all lined up on the counter.  I go into my bedroom and grab out a small amount of pot and set it in the sink.  I go back into my room and grab my pipe setting it next to the beer bottles.  Suddenly a knock on the door.  

"Hello?"

"Open up it's Mikey."

"What's up?"

"Ash, Cal, Luke, Luke's friend and I are all going to grab dinner tonight.  Wanna come?"

"Where?  What time?"

"Carries Diner on Harbor Drive at 6."

"Yeah.  I'll be there."  I shut my door and look at my beer collection.  Nobody even notices how fucked up I am from this shit.  I grab a beer bottle and throw it at the floor.  A release.  I do the same thing with the next 23 and my pipe.  I go over to the sink and turn the water on watching as the green substance circles down the drain.  I watch as my only releases and comforts leave me.  The pain sinks in and I fall to my hands and knees.  Pieces of glass pierce my hands and cut my legs.  I stand up and walk into the bathroom.  I sit in my tub and turn the shower on.  I feel myself getting lighter and everything fades away. 

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Calum's POV

It was 8:30 and Lissa ditched us.  I'm worried about her.  I thought our first date went well and she seems to get along with the guys.  Why would she just not show up?  Mike, Ash and I pull into the driveway of the apartments.  Luke drove Charlotte home.  I didn't like her.  She was like a photo copy of Lissa only a lot more rude.  The guys and I step out of the elevator.

"Cal let's go!"  Ashton yells at me.  I'm standing at Lissa's door but him and Mike are already at ours.

"I'll be right there.  I'm just gonna see why she didn't come." 

"Alright."  

I knock on her door.  No answer.  I look through the peephole but can't see anything.  There are no lights on but her car was in the parking lot.  I twist her door handle and its open.  I walk in cautiously and notice broken glass bottles on the floor.  I hear the shower running and walk over to the bathroom.  I knock on the door.  No answer.  I carefully peep my head through the door.  There is blood all over the floor and Lissa is laying in the tub not moving. 

"Lissa!  Lissa?"  I race over to her and see that she has deep gashes on her hands on knees.  She isn't breathing.  I lift her out of the tub and place her on the floor.  I place my face next to hers to make sure she isn't breathing.  I place my mouth over hers and give her two breaths.  I begin giving her CPR.  After about three cycles.  She begins coughing.

"Lissa?  Lissa!"  She continues coughing and I sit her up straight so she can breath.  Her eyes flash open and she looks at me.  Tears start to form in her eyes and she leans into my chest.  Light sobs come from her as she mumbles words.

"Thank you so much Calum."  I pull her even closer.

"Anytime.  What happened?"

"I realized how unhappy I was with all the drugs and alcohol and I got rid of it all.  I lost all of my releases and when I fell to my hands and knees I cut them all up..."  She pauses to sniffle and wipe away some tears.  "I came in here to wash off the blood and then everything went black.  I thought I died Calum.  I saw lights and then a bright red flash."

"I thought you died too."  She cries even harder into my shirt.  I must have been here longer than I thought because Michael and Ashton came racing into the apartment.

"Calum?  Calum where are you?"  

"I'm in the bathroom!"  Mike and Ash walk in.

"Oh my god are you ok?"  Ash squats down next to Lissa and I and Mike follows.  Lissa sits up in my lap.

"Now that I have you guys.  Yes."