Him

Chapter Six

There are a couple things many people don't know about me. I have bad anxiety, and I was two pounds away from being anorexic. I still have the problem of me losing weight dramatically.

I was going to be sent to rehab, but my parents decided not to when my weight started to miraculously gain. I was even surprised- McDonald's every night really did do the trick. But now, my doctors have been saying that McDonald's isn't always the answer so my weight has been stuck in one spot- 100. I am 5'5 and that is low when you're my height.

I'm not saying that I don't eat, because I do. But when I eat, my metabolism is high so it determinates the fat that I just put into my body. It's all because of soccer that my metabolism is so high, but soccer is what keeps me from having panic attacks. It contradicts each other.

Not a lot of people know about my almost anorexia or my anxiety attacks. Jay, Ally, Todd, Hayley and I guess now Dylan know about the panic attacks, but only me, my parents, and Jay know about the anorexia. But I know that people have talked about how skinny I am for my height, and I know that people are rude about it.

Last year, I remember Margo and Lianna coming up to me asking me if I ate today. I thought they were being genuinely nice, but no, they wanted to know if I was anorexic.

"Did you eat today?" Lianna asked me.
"yea, I always eat." I said. It wasn't a lie.
"You look like you don't eat period." Margo said, making Lianna laugh.
"Well I do." I said with attitude.
"Oh look she's getting sassy." Lianna said to Margo.
"Funny." I said.
I got up from my table and heard Lianna say to Margo, "She has to be anorexic."

I didn't really want people to know about my disorders, but what was I supposed to do when it's obvious?

I didn't realize I was lost in my thoughts until Dylan waved his hand in front of me, "You okay?" He asked.
We were in the cafeteria in school. I nodded, "Not like you care though." I responded.
Dylan laughed, "You're right, I don't." He said.
Who knew that Dylan was the bad boy of the eleventh grade?

I found out that Dylan has already hooked up with three girls and it's on the third day of school. I also learned that one of those girls is the one and only, Margo. Great.

I saw them in the hallway holding hands. I made a puking face at Dylan when he caught a glance at me. Dylan laughed, "Attractive." He said.

Margo looked up at him, not realizing he was talking to me, "Oh I know I am." She said.

After they passed Jay and I died of laughter.

"I still think you and Dylan would be perfect for each other." Jay said.
"No thanks." I said shaking my head, "He'd probably just use me to satisfy his seventeen year old horny needs."
Jay laughed, "I think you two like each other, but I swear, if you two do kiss and do it, I will kill you both." He said, seriously.
I turned to face him, "Gross." I said.

I won't like Dylan in a billion years, ever.