Redemption Citadel

The Darkness within Part 2

  Warnings: Some scenes of a sexual nature. Slight violence. And random Disneyesque singing.

I do not own the songs or lyrics they are: Icant' fight this feeling by REO speedwagon

 I won't say I'm in love – from Disney's Hercules, That's mixed with For Good from the musical Wicked.

I'm just trying to copy the way that the series has multiple songs in a couple of the season episodes rather than throughout the whole thing – hence the amount of songs in the chapter.

    Cassandra woke up to the sound of a heartbeat beneath her ear, the rise and fall of gentle sleeping breathing. At sometime in the night she had turned to him, wrapped herself around him, whether unconscious or driven by a sudden desire to be close to him in a momentary wakefulness she did not know. Looking up at him now she could see the shadow of the teenage boy she had once known. It was in the point at the end of his nose, the light freckles across it's bridge. She smiled fondly to herself remembering the very obvious attempts to flirt with her, a strange mix between annoying and endearing. He'd come so far, but had she? She didn't see herself as all that much more different than when she had left Corona five years ago, and there was something wrong with that, she'd been travelling to find herself and her place in the world and she had found nothing. Until, that is, she'd arrived here, because something had changed within her since she had arrived here, hadn't it?

Why was she fighting this? The chance to wake up in somebodies' arms, feeling warm and cared for. The chance to have a connection with somebody, and not just anybody, Varian, the person who if she admitted it to herself meant the most to her in the whole world. And the chance to feel those lips against hers again, the chance of skin against skin, the chance of knowing that a person wanted you with that deep longing, that like hunger plays on the mind until it becomes all consuming.

"Oh, I can't fight this feeling any longer
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show

I tell myself that I can't hold out forever
I said there is no reason for my fear
'Cause I feel so secure when we're together
You give my life direction
You make everything so clear

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I've been running around in circles in my mind
And it always seems that I'm following you, Vare
'Cause you take me to the places
That alone I'd never find

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Varian, I can't fight this feeling anymore."

She reached her hand up to his face her fingertips brushing the tiny raised sunburst of scars just below his eyes, the jutting cheekbones, then down to the rough prickly stubble on his jaw line. They lifted for a moment before continuing feeling the soft silken strands of a lock of hair that had come loose from its leather thong and found its way to lie across his right eyes. The freckles along the bridge of his nose felt no different than the rest of his skin, and in the harsh morning sun she could see each and every one of the light brown dots. His top lip again was covered with a fine line of stubble. Her fingers hesitated, then they moved down to stroke across the plump dry bottom lip.

A hand caught hers. She startled as Varian's blue eyes opened and stared at her. He gave a warm sleepy smile. He gently tugged her hand upwards and pressed a light kiss to her inner wrist, she gasped at the gentle tingling sensation. Her breath was coming fast, she felt full of a nervous energy, and that place between her legs was making itself known with a gentle but insistent pulsing.