The rest of freshman year for us was tough. Honestly don't remember talking much. I was too busy pursuing Alex Meyer, as per usual. This girl does not give up on that toxic shit. Anyway, it wasn't until beginning of sophomore year that we started hanging out again.
Dylan and Braeden had visited my new group at 2am in August drunk out of their minds. My group was Siena, Maya, and I. We were sleeping over at Maya's and they walked 2 miles to get here. Dylan was too drunk to stay standing, I was scared for him. He fell down a few times and we all laughed. Braeden weirdly can drink a lot and never seem drunk. It's just his personality.
Sophomore year began and Dyl and I had chemistry together... not in the way I would've wanted it to be. We had the class together. Every weekend in the beginning we would hang out and do our chem notes together. He gave me his green hoodie and I can't remember why but I still have it to this day. We would FaceTime a lot and talk about dumb shit. We also came to the agreement that we were not allowed to date.
The reason was that our friendship was too valuable. That the risk of our personalities clashing and breaking up was not worth it. Him and I have the same personality, we are both ENFP, you can look that up if you don't know it. I also happen to be a Leo while he's an Aries. Those signs are supposed to work well but both of the Aries I dated before ended horribly.
Not much happened in sophomore year, he just would talk about this popular girl in our chem class. She was not that pretty, I don't know why he liked her. Oh also, my chem teacher made sure never to let Dylan and I sit together because of how much we talked. It was like she was trying to intervene... that bitch. Anyway, back to the popular girl. Her name's Kelsey. Honestly........ she looks like a dude, in the nicest way possible... I guess her eyes were a pretty color.
I think that was my jealousy speaking but I don't remember really going for Dyl during sophomore year. We just hung out and he would vent his issues to me, it was the basic best friend duo.
Then came junior year... Not so great. I started dating this guy in the summer, Damien Gregory. He went to another school and I met him at the end of sophomore year. My self esteem was so low, Damien was just not cute. I had no sexual attraction to this dude. I just thought if someone wanted to date me then I had meaning to the world. Not a great mindset.
Dylan was dating this super pretty and athletic girl, she was really good at soccer. We went to one of her games together and Dylan was super nervous. He didn't know what to say to her when the game was over and I witnessed all of it, so awkward. We went to the restaurant we both worked at and got free food.
I started that job mid-sophomore year and Dyl joined probably a few months after me. I loved the people I worked with, they were like a family to me. I was a hostess and Dylan was a busser, so he would come and bug me at the front desk pretty often. All the people we worked with thought we were dating or would make fun of us and call us lovebirds. I secretly loved it and still do.
Where things went south was around January 2019. I was still dating Damien and god... He would not stop pressuring me into having sex. I didn't want to especially with him, I was getting so fed up. A month before, Dylan and I were planning what we were gonna do for Christmas. We were both gonna get each other gifts, I was so excited. We had a free period together every other day and spent every one together. I got him vans that he wanted for a long time and he took me on a date to a nice restaurant. I obviously read it wrong. I couldn't help but feel swelled up with emotions that evening.
After the dinner we drove around and listened to Kid Cudi. I really really liked Dylan and I was willing to risk whatever would happen to us. I texted him a paragraph later saying this:
"Ok so I don't know if you feel the same way but I really like you. I know we've talked about how bad it would be if we dated so many times but I'm willing to risk it. It doesn't even have to be now, we could date senior year. I just can't keep these feelings in anymore and I felt I had to be honest"
I was still dating Damien... Listen LISTEN OK I don't cheat, I don't condone in it. I actually broke up with him a week after this because I had been planning it that whole month. My heart was beating out of my chest, standing in my bathroom. I couldn't tell if I regretted this or not.
Dylan had said no and my heart and hope for anything crushed into a million pieces. I fucked up big time. I was so sure that he liked me, all signs pointed to yes. We had english class that year and sat next to each other. Our teachers always thought we were together. It just seemed so perfect. The way he would look at me? I could feel it. How could his answer be no?
Something I didn't realize was that Dylan was dealing with substance abuse. He was drinking a lot more and was always high. I didn't think much of it. The kid was having an identity crisis at age 17. Dylan quickly became friends with popular people in my grade that year, even eventually dated that ugly girl from our chem class too. I just didn't understand it.
He slowly started pushing me away along with me trying to untangle myself from this heartbreak and change. To make matters worse, Damien HATED Dylan. He knew I liked him, it was so obvious. He talked often about how he didn't like Dyl. They met once or twice but Dylan never was rude to him.
By the end of junior year, I didn't really talk to Dyl at all. He was cancelling a lot of his shifts at work and I talked to my 2 managers about what had happened to us. They're both super close to me and I was always comfortable telling them about stuff.
I tried texting Dylan in June after school ended and my text didn't even deliver. I quickly panicked thinking he blocked my number. I was so upset. This was the end of him and I. I don't really know what I did at the time and I was angry. I didn't bother to send him anything more after that.
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