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✨c.soonyi:
uh- hi. :]

i know this is probably going to freak you out, and i'm sorry for getting your hopes up, but if you receive this message- i'm not coming back.
i'm writing this message out, and i'll ask one of the nurses to send the messages to you if i become,,, u know- uh, aliven't.

i really don't know what to say to you, bear. i'll probably have said it all already, it's probably going to be so sappy holy shit i'm going to be cringing in the afterlife just thinking about it- is that too soon??? lol whoops sorry my bad g🥶💪

anyways-

i'm sorry that i couldn't stay with you in this lifetime, bear. we should've had so much more time together :(

we never got to lay under the stars together, wrapped up in each other's arms to keep warm, laughing as we make dumb shapes out of the stars littering the sky.

we never got to exchange rings, and dance like idiots in front of our friends as i trip over my long white dress- the cake already cut into pieces and handed out to the guests.

we'll never get to see our little babies running around, no doubt being just as crazy as you- we never discussed children, but i think it was something we both wanted. how many would we have had? i think three- three is a nice number :]

and i'm sorry that i won't be coming back. i'll be watching over you, of course! someone's got to keep you in check :] plus it would be so fun to mess with you LMAOO just imagine everything i could do to you when i'm a ghost 😈😈😈😈😈🥶

i'm sorry, i should really stop making jokes about it. to be completely honest- i'm scared, bear. i don't want to leave. i'm not ready to leave yet. i didn't even get chance to say goodbye to the others. how long will it be until they find out? i'll never get to say goodbye to them- at least not while i'm still alive. i know i'm acting like it's nothing, but bear- i would do anything to stay here. even just a couple more days! i just- i really don't want to leave, bear. i want to stay. i need to stay here, it's not fair-

i should probably wrap this message up, you're probably getting tired of reading now.

bear- thank you. you took my world, which was dull, grey, lonely- and you helped it bloom into something wonderful. with every ounce of my being, tae, thank you :]

i love you, bear.

i love you more than yesterday, and less than tomorrow.

and in another lifetime, i'll love you even more. :]

i'm just glad that i could make you happy in this one. <3

love you, bear !! <333
-choi soonyi :]

((ps... i could still kick your ass at mario kart from beyond the grave LMAO loser x ))